Dog Days

Well we're at the peak of july here in Dallas, which means constant heat and humidity. But i'm not complaining too much, because i love being home. Even if everything is falling apart, we are alive and there are leaves on the trees.
I've found out some frustrating news, medically. I don't have all the answers so i'm not allowed to be relieved or frustrated yet, but not knowing is getting really frustrating. and the doctor's office gets a giant fail for not answering the phones reliably. Basically, this could be the answer to a lot of problems i've been having over a long span of time, or it could not, in which case i just fail all around.
Currently listening to: Dog Days are Over by Florence and the Machine. SO GOOD!
I had to make a frustrating decision recently. Antoinette turns 21 (finallllllyyy) in august. Since i was going to be in utah for summer term and come back august 13, i was set to be home until august 30th. but then i found out that my sister and her husband are going to graduate (and walk) in august, around the 13th or so, and my oldest sister mary and her gem of a boyfriend mark would be flying out, along with my younger siblings and my mom and my dad. so if i didn't go to this, i would be missing out on a lot of family time. but this would mean i couldn't go back home at the end of it. meaning, i would miss the roadtrip to notre dame and thus antoinette's excessively fun birthday. talk about dilemma!
but i had to make a decision and decision i did make. i decided that missing that much family time would just be unforgivable. i had to tell antoinette and her mom that i could not drive with her after all. which was a bummer.
but let me tell you what wasn't a bummer: girls night!!!
last friday, antoinette came over to my house to pick me up. she and i went to eat at blue goose (best quesadillas (with guac and beans) and tortillas. which are endless). so that was super yummy. then we drove down to her house and went to get our nails done. the ever glamorous courtney met us there and we all got pink berry and then get pedicures and manicures. afterwards, courtney went home to shower (since she had just been at the gym) and antoinette and i went to the grocery store (to buy cookie and ice cream supplies). after arriving at her house, we watched bridget jones' diary and courtney showed up. that movie gets better every time.
after that we went to eat a super good dinner at mango thai. this place has really good yellow curry, but even better sticky rice. after our super glamorous dinner (we definitely stayed past close) we went to samar's in downtown dallas for drinks and to chat. then we got back to antoinette's, made the cazookie (mmmm) and watched the saint. courtney fell asleep on the couch and didn't want to move so antoinette and i went back and slept in her room. for the record: i am obsessed with antoinette's bed. i would take it to college with me if i could.

this is what i wake up to every time i sleep over
i love antoinette's house. that dog has been around forever
and we always add more things to its head. i love it.

the next day we woke up bright and early at 1130 (or so. we went to bed at like 4). antoinette's dad was pounding the wall all the way to her door, which sure woke us up. me and anto and her family went to eat at taco diner (courtney disappeared to work out sometime in the morning. that's dedication). it was super good, as usual. then antoinette and i went to northpark, and spent way too much time and money that we didn't have. i waited at her house for someone to pick me up and was quickly immersed into a rather panicked environment. such is our family- chaos.

this was on the screen of antoinette's computer when we opened it the next morning.

outside at samar

and for the cuteness factor... röschti celebrates her first birthday
with cake jordan and i cooked.

a few days ago i went back to northpark to see inception. everyone is all abuzz with this movie, "was he in a dream, was he awake, etc. etc." personally, i think he was still in a dream at the end. but i have to admit it was so fun to watch. the whole time i was thinking, "wow, this is a movie that isn't shoving a message down my throat (avatar, ahem, michael moore ahem), is making me think, and is actually well done in all aspects." it was thrilling to watch because i didn't know what to expect and i was genuinely entertained. good all around.
other than that, i have recently, as in this very night, been emancipated. the final string that attached me to a wanna-be-would-be relationship that never happened was snapped off. and i felt so great, i felt so free i decided to blog about it. because nothing beats the feeling of finally overcoming something or someone that has been upsetting you for years.
i succeeded at something!
go carol.