WELCOME INTERNATIONAL READERS!!!!!

i had no idea so many people from all over the world read this!! 'tis truely amazing. thank you very much to my international readers. i hope you enjoy the mellowdramas and sapiness of my life. leave me comments!! i love hearing from people.
now, as we all know, julia started junior year of school today. it was... pretty traumatic. needless to say. i have an insane amount of homework tonight and i have to read like... three hundred more pages of democracy in america which is so hard to read i want to cry. it is so. so. so. dull. maybe not dull, but just so thick, it takes so long to get through one page. so burdensome.



Me, antoinette, and caroline, right before taking of for orientation. that was yesterday.


caroline, thanks for loaning me your arm for that second.


the group. what what.


let's not forget the picture mellodrama of this morning.

anyway, i need to organise school supplies and take things from last year out of my backpack and all that stuff so i'm off!!

ADKLAGN

I DO NOT WANT SCHOOL TO START!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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Punx Rox

alright so today was a pretty busy day. sorry you missed out annie, curse your sickness! i called antoinette at one umm. thirty or so and we decided hanging out would be a good thing. so i met her in the borders parking lot and we (antoinette, william, and i) decided to drive over to francesca's really fast to find this bouncy car thing that we couldn't find. so we decided to see a movie. so we both drove over to caroline's house and then we went to antoinettes house and then we went to see "THE CAVE." it was fun hand holding screaming time.
afterwards... afterwards we went to quizno's i dropped people off at wills house, and then i went home. i thought i was going to a church activity however it turned out to be rediculously far away and i was too late to leave for it. so antoinette, will, and caroline show up at my doorstep at eight or so. thus we hang out in my room, go to coldstone, cuddle on my bed, take pictures, listen to music, and teach william how to dress, how to wear axe, and how to treat a laaady. it advanced him a total lot in his hotness. observe.



this was him when he walked up to my door. slash all day.




and this was him with a short, not complete, make-0ver.



thus i never wanted to let go of him. sigh. you should probably close up.


it was a good night. a fun night. an altogether bang out of a day for the end of summer. bravo team. bravo.

DEAR JAMIE... SINCERELY ME.

curse my school for stealing my brandnew laptop from my grasp! i'm pretty sure i'm going to stick with the italian names for my electronics (first digital camera was giovanni, the replacement was giovanni II, perhaps this laptop can be gianni or paolo or something like that.) i'm starting to fall in love with my sun glasses by the way. falling in l-0-0-0-0-v-e with them.
g4mer.



so zack came in my room last night and was very weird about me liking the lead singer of green day, like he's angry i don't find him (zack) hotter. it's strange. and then last night he said that when he turns around he can hear my voice but he can't see my beautiful face, so he held my hand. he is adorable though, that is no lie.



So. Summer is drawing to a close, and really, i don't like it. i'm not going to say, "i don't know how i feel about it," this year, because i do know. i know that i haven't read democracy in america yet and that i have to for school by monday or maybe tuesday at the latest. i know that i have a ton of work ahead of me and papers and projects and really lame boring complicated stuff like that. i know that i'm signed up for two science courses that i really really don't want to take. PLANT PATHOLOGY? WTF? yeah that's right, wtf, hXc.
AH! i've been reading way too much urban dictionary and i've been on myspace way too much. i'm starting to love OMFG, OMFGZ, LOLZ, hXc, and i am now mockingly calling everything "the sex"
good gravy what has happened.



margaret and chad are gone, have i mentioned that yet? have i also mentioned the incredible pain fencing pre-season is putting me and anna simon through? today i hope that we play soccer or something because i still can't move my legs. gag. i mean *gagz*

I'M GOING wow. i'm going to go because it is almost noon and i want my last days of summer to be memorable in some sort of way. OH I HOPE I GET QUIZNOS.

jrexxx.

It's twelve thirty in the morning and i am very tired. my bed is occupied by two little children who want me to wake them up in a few hours when mary gets back so that they can be transported to the comfier bigger bed downstairs.i want to sleep, but i have to wait another thirty minutes to an hour and thirty minutes until mary gets home. my parents get in tomorrow of which i am very excited. for once it's not their presents or attention or money i want, it's just i want to see their faces and to hold them. My dad said that the london bombings had a bigger affect on me than i would like to think... maybe he's right. i feel like september eleventh was an immidiate traumatic reaction, and the scarring from that will never heal fully. however this was different. i was in a country by myself and i tried not to think anything of it, but now i think that the effects are finally having a toll on me. the whole experience was much more traumatic and scary than i will ever admit to any soul. i'm not as strong as i act.
postsecret could be the greatest blog created. it just really makes you realize that everyone has something in common. we all put up fronts, we all have secrets, we all do weird things. it's a fantastic feeling reading that website.
alright, so now that i've got this counter, i'm just curious, who do i know in irving slash arlington? anyone? anyone from irving or arlington want to leave me a comment? i mean, i'm just curious.
is cushy a real word? i'd like to know, becuase antoinette used it today and it was in a luvs commercial.
andy milinokis is twenty nine years old. i'm a little weirded out.
i'll never stop loving the sound of hearing people breathing. i love heartbeats, i love pulses, i love breathes. i find the whole thing fascinating. it's just a simple very poetic reminder that you are still alive and that others around you are still alive and cozy in their state of dream. it's such a glorious thought.
i am now officially a myspace addict. zack woke me up the other day, and for the first time in my life i mumbled something before my mind adjusted. what did i mumble? "what in the myspace... what do you want?"
fantastic.
antoinette took us all out to blue mesa today for her birthday. she paid. the lunch was wonderful and delicious and it was incredibly nice on her part to do all of it. i just wish that i could've gone to her sleepover tonight. instead i babysat the kids, which wasn't terrible or upsetting at all, it's just that i wanted that sleepover. i haven't had one in oh-so-long.




i had fun driving my car today... not. i hate driving now. it is a burden and an embaressment for me. it smokes everytime i turn it on and everytime i accelerate and everytime i'm at a stoplight. it has started not accelerating as well, which was really fun this evening when it wouldn't accelerate and i was stuck in the middle of the road with a giant truck coming towards me. i was waiting for the impact. i hate the forever lack of gasness and the always having to put oil in, the fact that i don't even bother looking around for hot boys because what kind of guy would i find in that smoke ridden car. even anna said that when she was parked behind me the smoke went through her vents and she had to roll down her windows. this is rediculous. i'm terribly embaressed and i just don't know what i'm going to do once school has started. ah.

i got my schedule today. we'll see if i can change some things around.


sigh. i'm going to go myspace it.

I'm gonna look GLAMOROUS

alright fools. i'm only in the june part of saving my pictures to this laptop, and i'm only in the beginning of july for the sending those pictures through email part. i heard that we have to give our computers to mr. bradley. i'm not comfortable with this. i vaguely remember him saying something to me on the phone about how i'd have my computer back the first week of school. what is he going to do with it? i don't want to give it up for that long!! this is indeed a terrible terrible thing. i'm not ready for book distribution. this is the time that everybody comes and everyone sees how much everyone else has changed and sizes them up. sigh. this is why i am now leaving to go straighten my hair.
let the games begin, HEY OHHH!!

KILLER MOTH.

I got my vaio beautiful computer today. It is seriously delicious.
Antoinette called today to make sure i was going to lunch/breakfast with her for her birthday. here's the problem-- I thought that book distribution was on friday and since anto was celebrating her birthday on that day, i assumed my mom and dad would be in town and they would give me permission to go and celebrate her birthday. i mean... she's turning 16. but i found out that book distribution and antoinettes birthday are both on tuesday. problem is, mary assumes that i am going to take advantage of her hospitality while my parents are away. granted, i should've called her when i went out on friday, that was a mistake. I stayed out too late, and yes, maybe i did take advantage of mary's lax nature. however, this is my friends sixteenth birthday. i wasn't planning nor do i plan to do anything else this week. I know that i've gone out a lot, and i'll be hanging out with my friends a lot during school. therefore, i simply want to celebrate antoinettes birthday with her. i hope that mary lets me do this. i'm pretty sure my mom said it was ok, but that's not clear. antoinette also mentioned some "late night partying." i do not know what this means, but i hope mary lets me do that too. sigh. this is all very difficult.
i like the clickity sound of my new keyboard. this computer is scrumtrulescent.
18 in exactly 8 months.

Evil Look

Ok, for the sake of mary's sanity, i'm updating. even though i'm her sister and really we could just talk instead, she prefers to check my blog rather than talk to me while trading. misplaced modifier there i think, sorry.
so, i would update my past few days but there is honestly nothing to say. school is starting way too soon for me to be comfortable with. there's only like, one more week with summer. i wish that i could spend the rest of those days sleeping in late and relaxing, but i cannot. with seminary and carpooling, fencing pre-season starting on monday, and summer reading to cram, it looks as though my last days of summer will be filled with ironing, stress, and angry fights. sigh.
i am more nervous about junior year than i have about any grade of my whole life. i'm graduating soon and the idea is very daunting for me. i'm scared, obviously, of leaving my friends and family and security. the fact that i know where i live i will always be safe and loved. i don't want my friendships to fall apart, they must remain intact!
i'm thinking about doing volunteer work in greece.
i miss oxford rediculous amounts still. i miss the people and the hot chocolate walks to class, my boys, the dances, the councellors, everything. i miss walking around town and going where i want when i want. i can't even get freaking quizzno's, what's up with that.
my laptop is supposed to be delivered today. exciting, but i'm not as excited as i'd assumed i would be. it's strange.
you know what's also strange? that itunes shuffles music amazingly well. it's like, it knows what i want to hear and how different songs should be lined up. it's amazing.
i'm hoping that my mom will let me go see red-eye and sleepover at antoinettes on friday. i miss going out (it's been like a week) and such. i haven't had a sleepover since oxford. gasp.



this was a picture that i took while in... umm... stratford. i really like this one, but i don't think many people do/ did. ah well. i've got other, lots of other, pictures i could put up. shout if you want some.

Were you Born to Resist?

Ah yes. so i got a hepititus A AND B shot today!!! cause the doctor "recommended it." but she was very nice. she made small talk fantastically and was rather good looking and it wasn't that bad except for i got jabbed with a needle on two sides of my body and it bled more than usual and now my arms are rediculously sore.
so we ordered my computer today. my laptop computer.
um, my baby-soft-skin-scrub really does make my skin feel baby soft. i am just so excited at how soft my skin is right now.
margaret and mary (and chad) got back from their two week long road trip around the midwest and chicago and indiana and canada and all that. both margaret and mary were in terribly foul moods today and i would rather not return downstairs and deal with their wrath. i don't quite appreciate being treated like that.
anna and antoinette drove down (cause anna's got her license now!) and we had dinner and ate brownies and watched twilight zone episodes. unfortunately we didn't have much time together, but ah well. so is life in the suburbs.
so chad and his sister (and her husband and their kids) are coming over for dinner tonight. meh. chad is nice and all, but he's critical of looks and nutrition and sometimes he has a way of making you feel inferior to him. all the time.
anyway, now that it is 348 in the afternoon and i haven't even brushed my teeth yet and i just got out of the shower, i'm going. but first, bess' away message:

so the sky fell last night, leaving a jungle in my driveway. ahoy, rainforest animals, welcome to my backyard

Fantastic.

I can't post anymore. I'm getting tired of it. Sorry models.  

I knew that was happening.  

I didn't know this was happening.  

We're doing tribal dances back off. 

Caroline and Antoinette. 

That's us.  

Well this is awkward.  

OH. MY. GOSH. 

More gangster than you. Heh. 

Ahhh i heart you.  

haha  

OMFGZ BFF FOR LIFE. 

Meh.  

Annie and Katie much? 

That's cute.  

Op! that's my foot! Huzzah for modeling.