A few things, before my life begins to speed up and I'm projected into a cataclysmic sphere of CRAZY.

I love Atlas Shrugged. I love it so much. I love competent, hard working people that know what they want. 

I've realized something over a few days. and i'm not about to boast about myself for hours on end, but there is something i think is pretty legit about me, and that's how i treat my friends.

the more i think about how hard it is to find a reliable, good friend these days, the more frustrated i get. now don't get me wrong, i have some of the craziest, funniest friends in the world. but here, i'll give you a situation.

say a friend of mine wants to do something, asked all of the friends in the group if they could do that one thing. they all plan on it. then that friend has a really bad day, and just can't go out. if she calls me crying, or texts me really upset, i would no doubt put everything else in my life on hold, and either go comfort that friend, or listen to their problems. and i would for sure not go to the movie. 

for some reason, this just doesn't happen in real life. people are selfish, people do what makes them feel good and often don't go for the thing that is right, just and good, but for the easy and more comfortable way out.

and don't even get me started about when a boy is in the picture.

so that is one thing i just... i'm just really annoyed by lately. and yes, that situation did happen, and yes, everyone still went to see the movie. yes i'm a baby and should get over it, but in all fairness, things really had gone awfully yesterday.

i have a lot on my mind grapes. so many big big big things are coming up that i'm just not ready for or i just don't want to deal with. i want to transfer to a big city. i want reliable friends. i want self control and a normal routine. 

anyway, that's about all i've got. i need to go to sleep and prepare for the weekend -- my last weekend in Dallas -- before i go back to school. all i have to say is BOOOOOOO.