germany 2006

ohhhh man. im in germany right now and i leave tomorrow and no words can describe this trip...

i have changed significantly but in not so obvious ways, and i have done and eaten things i never thought i would have the guts to. i had to say goodbye to ludwig a couple of days ago, and when i was running beside the train crying and blowing kisses towards each other, i realized i dont want to leave this place. i really fell in love with this country and the language and the people and everything. i loved münster so much, it was such a cool city. i dont know if it was the hugely large amount of bikes everywhere or if it was the awesome night scene, but i loved it. ludwigs house was so nice and his family was so awesome, and every morning his mom would make me such delicious müsli with delicious fruit on top and we'd have bread and nutella and it was sooo grood.
i only wish i had said thank you more often. i just sort of got out of the habit and never thanked ludwig for helping me when i felt sick, and i didn't tell his mom thank you enough. and he brought it up in switzerland and i felt aweful when i realized that it was true, that i was ungrateful. i felt aweful and i wish i could go back in time and relive it and fix everything. because that half of the trip was just so surreal and amazing.
no words.

more later.