well, i figure this is the time in movies where everything goes wrong. i have been rejected, there is no hope for me in the near future, so i figure i'll be completely honest now, because what's the worse that could happen? my life is already terrible right now.
i feel betrayed by a majority of my friends. the few that i am intimately close with. annie has been there for me recently, katie, and now william. at first i was upset because annie went to eat with antoinette and then to a movie and i wasn't invited and just felt completely left out and lonely. it's ok now, but it was terrible timing because i had really needed that.
on the other hand, antoinette has really been into going out and partying... a lot lately. and mostly i am not involved. it is mostly boys, as well. now it's not the fact that she's with boys, but i feel like she doesn't care about me as much and is putting these boys before me. i am upset.
caroline was gone, she can't help it. but i wish that she had picked up her phone tonight.
katie was there for me one hundred per cent this break. i have no complaints only praises. she came over when i was down, helped me up off my feet. comforted me, was there for me, and made me completely happy.
william called me tonight and said some of the sweetest things i've ever heard. i understand now. he is the first guy that has actually been a real true friend. thanks.
other than that, there isn't much else. annie, don't take this the wrong way, that was one incident, you were extremely helpful for me tonight and i know that you wouldn't do anything to hurt me.
so that's it. shoot me tomorrow, hurt me rip my hair out, whatever. i feel like i'm already in the gutter, why not be covered in dirt while i'm at it and get it all out of the way.
REJECTED!
November 27, 2005
November 24, 2005
text sex
i'm pretty sure i have an obsession with the past. like, i can't just delete it.
just take them for what they are. sex. i mean. texts.
"lol i love your school. its so perfect for you. and so you have sleeping asthma or the regular kind? and i need more brand new. plus your sad emo songs are weird." -colin
"i'm about to do nothing. yay for working out." -chachi
"omgz i cant believe my txt was one of your faves. yes i am a stalker and read your blog." -colleen.
"that's how i roll" -colleen
"how come? girls are mean." -colin, adding that "girls are mean" thing out of nowhere.
"lol sounds fun. kasees a controlling date." -colin. again, out of nowhere.
"you look like a giant blueberry!" -colleen
"hmm i don't get you. maybe it's better that way :)" -colin
"make a cardboard cutout of me and carry it around." -adam. about how i miss him.
"it's called sex panther. it's illegal in 9 countries and it's made from bits of real panther, so you know its good." -colleen.
"um yesterday i was walking to go to lunch and calling someone and this nazi teacher took it. my mom came today to get it. btw i need to lose 5 lbs by saturday."-colin
"how was she stressed? and what do you mean nevermind? and how was that? were you fashionable?" -colin
"oh i have my weather patterns. lots of rain and storms. like it's always winter but never christams." serge
"lol thanks i just listened to it. i do feel honored. what are you doing now?" -someone finally cares. oh. that was colin.
"so.... bored... and boy deprived..." -caroline. happy thanksgiving.
"happy thanksgiving ya'll. i don't know about you but i'm thankful for starbucks." -caroline.
"yup second time. but its ok because just friends is for bitter mormons" -peiser on going to see rent.
"you are completely bitter. a completely bitter mormon." -peiser
"how was your thanksgiving? family still nuts?" -colin
yay for text messaging. yay.
just take them for what they are. sex. i mean. texts.
"lol i love your school. its so perfect for you. and so you have sleeping asthma or the regular kind? and i need more brand new. plus your sad emo songs are weird." -colin
"i'm about to do nothing. yay for working out." -chachi
"omgz i cant believe my txt was one of your faves. yes i am a stalker and read your blog." -colleen.
"that's how i roll" -colleen
"how come? girls are mean." -colin, adding that "girls are mean" thing out of nowhere.
"lol sounds fun. kasees a controlling date." -colin. again, out of nowhere.
"you look like a giant blueberry!" -colleen
"hmm i don't get you. maybe it's better that way :)" -colin
"make a cardboard cutout of me and carry it around." -adam. about how i miss him.
"it's called sex panther. it's illegal in 9 countries and it's made from bits of real panther, so you know its good." -colleen.
"um yesterday i was walking to go to lunch and calling someone and this nazi teacher took it. my mom came today to get it. btw i need to lose 5 lbs by saturday."-colin
"how was she stressed? and what do you mean nevermind? and how was that? were you fashionable?" -colin
"oh i have my weather patterns. lots of rain and storms. like it's always winter but never christams." serge
"lol thanks i just listened to it. i do feel honored. what are you doing now?" -someone finally cares. oh. that was colin.
"so.... bored... and boy deprived..." -caroline. happy thanksgiving.
"happy thanksgiving ya'll. i don't know about you but i'm thankful for starbucks." -caroline.
"yup second time. but its ok because just friends is for bitter mormons" -peiser on going to see rent.
"you are completely bitter. a completely bitter mormon." -peiser
"how was your thanksgiving? family still nuts?" -colin
yay for text messaging. yay.
November 21, 2005
TO THE FLOOR.
anyway. ludacris = catchy.
anywayzzzzzz.
lots has been going on, and me in my lameness, once more, haven't been posting. so.
1. parents went out of town. jordan and zack were horrible. i don't know if any amount of money can make up for that hell. i am just praying that tomorrow my dad will go with me to the phone store so i can get my new phone. yay.
2. i will never stop loving those late night runs. katie, you know we have blasts doing those. don't deny it.
3. i'm starting to think more and more that i should just suck up the courage and tell him i like him.
4. friday colin came over to watch star wars episode III with me. filled with very awkward and frustraing interuptions from zack and jordan, awkward conversation, accusations, pity, and silence.
5. i'm not sure i enjoy the path all my friends are going down. the large group let's not care about anyone but myself and how much fun i'm having with this guy next to me fun. i don't think i like that kind of fun.
6. THANK HEAVENS FOR BREAKS.
7. i just can't wait until i get a car that i can drive wherever. i miss that so much. i got to drive my dads car this weekend (nice drive) and i was really careful with it. and i'm just hoping that i can get a car because boy to i miss driving. that freedom. sigh.
8. mmm... soft skin after showers.
9. lack of text sex = :[
10. a friend who bleeds is better.
PURE MORNING. PURE. MORNING. PURE. MORNING. PURE. MORNING.
SOMEONE TELL HIM I'M SITTING HERE WAITING FOR HIM, JUST HIM!!!!!
anywayzzzzzz.
lots has been going on, and me in my lameness, once more, haven't been posting. so.
1. parents went out of town. jordan and zack were horrible. i don't know if any amount of money can make up for that hell. i am just praying that tomorrow my dad will go with me to the phone store so i can get my new phone. yay.
2. i will never stop loving those late night runs. katie, you know we have blasts doing those. don't deny it.
3. i'm starting to think more and more that i should just suck up the courage and tell him i like him.
4. friday colin came over to watch star wars episode III with me. filled with very awkward and frustraing interuptions from zack and jordan, awkward conversation, accusations, pity, and silence.
5. i'm not sure i enjoy the path all my friends are going down. the large group let's not care about anyone but myself and how much fun i'm having with this guy next to me fun. i don't think i like that kind of fun.
6. THANK HEAVENS FOR BREAKS.
7. i just can't wait until i get a car that i can drive wherever. i miss that so much. i got to drive my dads car this weekend (nice drive) and i was really careful with it. and i'm just hoping that i can get a car because boy to i miss driving. that freedom. sigh.
8. mmm... soft skin after showers.
9. lack of text sex = :[
10. a friend who bleeds is better.
PURE MORNING. PURE. MORNING. PURE. MORNING. PURE. MORNING.
SOMEONE TELL HIM I'M SITTING HERE WAITING FOR HIM, JUST HIM!!!!!
November 18, 2005
The Wishing Well
ok, so i had to babysit for this family friend today (four hours, 60 bucks, not too bad). anyway, once the kids were in bed, i watched the notebook. i've seen it once before, and i knew how hot ryan gosling is, especially shirtless and/or kissing, however, this time. i just lost it. i can't explain it! i was alone, i felt alone, i knew i was pathetic-- it all collapsed at the same time! and the old couple holding hands... OH GOSH. !!!
so, santa, hey... get your hands on that for me for christmas this year, a'ight?
it doesn't help that i have the song, "i'll be seeing you," on my computer, the last words spoken between the couple before they died together.
great.
oh, harry potter was amazing, my dads car drives fantastically, i love hot chocolate, and i am sick of one sided friendships.
:
i am tired of creating elaborate surprises for people, even though they may appear small or unimportant. because there is never a return in this thought.. i'm not making sense. i am so exaughsted. the point is... i'm selfish and am always expecting more.
seeing harry potter again, this time with the kids.
should be pretty fun... little kids are always fun to go see movies with.
oh so tired.
so, santa, hey... get your hands on that for me for christmas this year, a'ight?
it doesn't help that i have the song, "i'll be seeing you," on my computer, the last words spoken between the couple before they died together.
great.
oh, harry potter was amazing, my dads car drives fantastically, i love hot chocolate, and i am sick of one sided friendships.
:
i am tired of creating elaborate surprises for people, even though they may appear small or unimportant. because there is never a return in this thought.. i'm not making sense. i am so exaughsted. the point is... i'm selfish and am always expecting more.
seeing harry potter again, this time with the kids.
should be pretty fun... little kids are always fun to go see movies with.
oh so tired.
November 15, 2005
It's been a while.
it has! wow! anyway. moving past the awkwardness....
thursday night equals the awesome night of harry potter!!! ness!!!
which equals i have a whole hella lot of homework to do tomorrow night.
my mom and dad and two older sisters are leaving for california on thursday. jordan got a new phone because she's got post stress and anxiety disorder or something like that. she now needs to feel connected to mom. or something.
also, i don't like feeling used.
also, my room is progressing! my workouts are hella intense.
AND ANTHONY HAS DENIED ME MY NECK PURRS. i actually now have no more reason to live. i hope he feels happy that my life has gone to shambles and i feel no happiness anymore.
etilcriepourmoi: shure.
etilcriepourmoi: and by shure.
etilcriepourmoi: i mean sure.
anchwanet: i don't know, i like shure
etilcriepourmoi: me too.
etilcriepourmoi: ok shure it is
anchwanet: but i don't like school
anchwanet: aka spanish and history
etilcriepourmoi: me either.
etilcriepourmoi: I KNOW
anchwanet: languages are whores
anchwanet: and people in the past were all whores
anchwanet: all of them
anchwanet: well...not all of them
etilcriepourmoi: true.
anchwanet: puritans though
etilcriepourmoi: oh i thought you had written panties
etilcriepourmoi: and i was disturbed and confused.
anyway, i'm freezing and tired and i feel sleepy and headachy and that i want to forget a lot of things and change a lot of stuff about me and i'm rambling and not even thinking coherently, so. there. i'm ending this entry. i really didn't have that many things to say.
or maybe i did and i forgot them all.
thursday night equals the awesome night of harry potter!!! ness!!!
which equals i have a whole hella lot of homework to do tomorrow night.
my mom and dad and two older sisters are leaving for california on thursday. jordan got a new phone because she's got post stress and anxiety disorder or something like that. she now needs to feel connected to mom. or something.
also, i don't like feeling used.
also, my room is progressing! my workouts are hella intense.
AND ANTHONY HAS DENIED ME MY NECK PURRS. i actually now have no more reason to live. i hope he feels happy that my life has gone to shambles and i feel no happiness anymore.
etilcriepourmoi: shure.
etilcriepourmoi: and by shure.
etilcriepourmoi: i mean sure.
anchwanet: i don't know, i like shure
etilcriepourmoi: me too.
etilcriepourmoi: ok shure it is
anchwanet: but i don't like school
anchwanet: aka spanish and history
etilcriepourmoi: me either.
etilcriepourmoi: I KNOW
anchwanet: languages are whores
anchwanet: and people in the past were all whores
anchwanet: all of them
anchwanet: well...not all of them
etilcriepourmoi: true.
anchwanet: puritans though
etilcriepourmoi: oh i thought you had written panties
etilcriepourmoi: and i was disturbed and confused.
anyway, i'm freezing and tired and i feel sleepy and headachy and that i want to forget a lot of things and change a lot of stuff about me and i'm rambling and not even thinking coherently, so. there. i'm ending this entry. i really didn't have that many things to say.
or maybe i did and i forgot them all.
November 03, 2005
Guys. Britney Totally has to deal with pain too.
First of all. Let me just say that i am absolutely completely madly in love with conner oberst.
Man and Wife, The Former (Financial Planning)
Well lately my days are much better
I can't concentrate while I'm at work
I just think and think until my head hurts
Of the payment plans I'm making
I just wanted to provide for you
But if you want to make a run for it
My love I'd cover you
And if you need money for bills
My lover I could cover you
'Cause I sold some shit I'm saving up
We can get that house next to the park
I'll get more hours at my dads shop
Yeah we'll plan for everything
And we'll enroll in that middle class
Get a compact car full of discount tags
If you're feeling trapped or too attached
Remember we wanted that
And if you need money for bills this month
My love I'd cover you
And if you have to lie to everyone
Well I'd cover up for you
'Cause we're growing older growing up
Just like our parents before us
With your new job at the coffee shop
We are ready for everything
And we'll graduate that middle class
Get a nicer car full of shopping bags
So if you're feeling sad kind of detached
Remember we wanted that
Just remember we wanted that
Yeah I sold some shit I'm saving up
We can get that house next to he park
With the extra hours I picked up
We will pay for everything
anyway. moving on. i am completely miserable, san diego.
let's start over. it's eight thirty four and i haven't started my homework and i don't wanna and i just want to crawl into my bed. and maybe die, but i don't know, that sounds kind of drastic.
i do know that the conversation i had with colin last night was REALLLYYY awkward. i mean like. he asked in the middle of the conversation if my friends think we're dating. how does someone respond to that? also, i think he said he had to go, but i didn't hear it, so i kept talking, and then he awkwardly said bye, and i felt like an idiot.
um, thanks to christi yip for helping me remember what i keep forgetting and then forgot to remind myself to do which is to continue wearing ties to school. i did it a lot last year, mostly in my incredibly depressed emo stage, and then i stopped cause i got lazy and undid all the knots.
but oh wait until tomorrow dear americans. just wait.
man am i tired. there is a lot of stuff i want to do this weekend, and i'm really wanting to do them. but i also really want to clean my room up completely. so there you are.
HARRY AND THE POTTERS THIS SATURDAY. come with. if i like you...
i worked out for a reaaaalllly long time today. and boy do my abs hurt like a mother.
hooray for mcdonalds week next week!!!! i'm totally excited. no you don't get it. totally excited.
gosh i would hate to be a teacher.
I FREAKING HATE EIGHTH GRADERS THEY ARE RETARDED.
Man and Wife, The Former (Financial Planning)
Well lately my days are much better
I can't concentrate while I'm at work
I just think and think until my head hurts
Of the payment plans I'm making
I just wanted to provide for you
But if you want to make a run for it
My love I'd cover you
And if you need money for bills
My lover I could cover you
'Cause I sold some shit I'm saving up
We can get that house next to the park
I'll get more hours at my dads shop
Yeah we'll plan for everything
And we'll enroll in that middle class
Get a compact car full of discount tags
If you're feeling trapped or too attached
Remember we wanted that
And if you need money for bills this month
My love I'd cover you
And if you have to lie to everyone
Well I'd cover up for you
'Cause we're growing older growing up
Just like our parents before us
With your new job at the coffee shop
We are ready for everything
And we'll graduate that middle class
Get a nicer car full of shopping bags
So if you're feeling sad kind of detached
Remember we wanted that
Just remember we wanted that
Yeah I sold some shit I'm saving up
We can get that house next to he park
With the extra hours I picked up
We will pay for everything
anyway. moving on. i am completely miserable, san diego.
let's start over. it's eight thirty four and i haven't started my homework and i don't wanna and i just want to crawl into my bed. and maybe die, but i don't know, that sounds kind of drastic.
i do know that the conversation i had with colin last night was REALLLYYY awkward. i mean like. he asked in the middle of the conversation if my friends think we're dating. how does someone respond to that? also, i think he said he had to go, but i didn't hear it, so i kept talking, and then he awkwardly said bye, and i felt like an idiot.
um, thanks to christi yip for helping me remember what i keep forgetting and then forgot to remind myself to do which is to continue wearing ties to school. i did it a lot last year, mostly in my incredibly depressed emo stage, and then i stopped cause i got lazy and undid all the knots.
but oh wait until tomorrow dear americans. just wait.
man am i tired. there is a lot of stuff i want to do this weekend, and i'm really wanting to do them. but i also really want to clean my room up completely. so there you are.
HARRY AND THE POTTERS THIS SATURDAY. come with. if i like you...
i worked out for a reaaaalllly long time today. and boy do my abs hurt like a mother.
hooray for mcdonalds week next week!!!! i'm totally excited. no you don't get it. totally excited.
gosh i would hate to be a teacher.
I FREAKING HATE EIGHTH GRADERS THEY ARE RETARDED.
November 02, 2005
LOOK AT ME GO
i know that i am such a terrible person for not having posted in so long. and yeah, you have missed a lot. once again, my phone inbox is completely full, so i'm dereting the messages and starting over. so here, once again. are the memorable ones i saved.
"Are you kidding, i love pink!!!!" -garrett
"miss you more than a G&D's sundae... and that's a lot girl!!!" -alexandra aka xander
"me as well. had a dream about oxford." -chloe aka chachi
"miss and luv you... i'll be back from africa on sept second. email me. " -katie
"it is nine forty five in the morning and i'm eating ravioli. wish i had capn crunch." later on, "let's trade." and then "meet you at the METROPLEX then." -chachi
"my dad says go pc" -anna. i love that her dad seriously contemplated my computer crisis.
"ME TOO it is dumb it is SO DUMB what are you doing right now? are you in church? what times is it in texas anywho?" -erica. mind you it was saturday.
"haha is it your parents that are making you do that? haha random AND I FORGOT TAHT TODAY WAS SATURDAY AND I THOUGHT IT WAS SUNDAY i have a question for you: did you get drunk the last night at oxford?" -erica. hey, i'm mormon.
"fog danger!" -adam
"sorry you had to eat alone. i am dead tired. i still love you! you were the perfect wedding date!" -mary
"we're going to el fenix. can you meet us there?" -mom. monumental b/c it was the first time i had gotten a text from her, and it was the day that her orders were dropped.
"OMG i'm taking film studies for school and it's like oxford all over again." -erica. OH MY GOSH I MISS MY ASHUN.
"i never knew lovely ladies cared so much. what are you guys up to?" -colin. i was with my friends. we cared that he didn't feel good or something like that.
"ineternet danger!" -adam. on "cry wolf"
"i love you too, hottt stuff." -mary
"mmm... injured boys..." -annie. i completely agree.
"can i take it back another night? do you need it tonight?" -colin, on the plate of mine that i left at his house. like, yeah, i have no other plates and only that one plate is necessary. TONIGHT.
"more like ***** and JULIA ACTION!!!" -annie. let's keep this name unknown, shall we?
"i only condone the phrase annie action. anything else doesn't flow." -colin. pff.
"it's great to think your family doesn't trust me. :( " -colin.
"i am completely miserable, san diego." -margaret. gosh i miss that kid.
"sorry i didn't talk to you long. cograts on your fencing. i've never won first place in my life. i'll try and call you this week, i'm just super busy" -margaret
"i'm in physics. it's not very entertaining. glad your a warrior." -colin
"cheer up emo girl. i'll always make you happy :) " -colin. umm... that made me so happy.
"i know, it's like the most adorable song ever written." -margaret, on "morning view" by silver scooter. i know, it is amazing.
"whew. done with my test. when you messaged me i was doing my problem bank for physics. it ws intense." -colin. YOU THINK? i'm pretty sure he had sent me a message in the middle of the test earlier, too.
"julia you take offense to everything. your texts always bring me out of my annoying school bubble. shouldn't you be in class?" -colin. maybe i'm paranoid.
"sounds fun. isn't that a messy business?" -colin, on ceramics. who says that? love it.
"i'm calling you this weekend. i have to get glasses." -chachi. i always knew you had it in ya.
"well now it's official: i am a true dork." -chachi. haha, YESSS
"i'll talk to you later this weekend-- sissy hour bedtime." -chachi. it's true, she always goes to bed at really lame hours.
"i waved bye but you never saw." -colin.
"hmmm you confuse me so much. why don't you just say what you need to say?" and then, "julia, what is your hunch exactly? stop speaking in riddles" and then, "julia you didn't fail me at all. she finally told me the truth. i just needed closure. she said she is not sure whether she loves him but won't let him go." -colin
"no YOU'RE hot." -annie
"JULES! thank you so much for the bowl, candies, and book! the bowl is so pretty i can't believe you made it!!" -rachel
"aww you're so lucky... i agree completely. why are girls so complicated?" -colin, on fires and hot chocolate, and then he just threw in that girl thing last minute.
"i'm sorry i'm a jerk to you." -colin. finally.
"ya ya whateva julia jones. you know how emo i am now. how was your day?" -colin as usual.
"but i didn't have a mountain, julia. i had a camera and a microphone." -margaret.
"i don't see how a pumpkin can be emo. whatev. your dad gives good essay advice. btw youd be proud of me. i'm writing decently." -colin fatty
"you are the most random person i have ever met. btw i need you next to me in seminary from now on." -colin. that message made me happy for a really long time. don't quite know why... anyway, i told him i didn't think it could work, and he says, "don't think we can sit next to each other? sure we can. don't make me go emo on you julia."
"i know. i'm the best." -colleen AHHH TOTAL CLONE.
"julia you are always bored. and how do you have so much time in school to always text? and i really like brand new." -colin.
anyway, fans, you have missed a lot. i went to the sleep clinic last night and got electrodes stuck ALL OVER MY BODY and today i was tested positive for hidden asthma, colin came over on halloween and we had our second annual lame "darkness falls" movie watching thing, i've started going to a trainer and am doing like seriously intense work out routines, i'm exaughsted all the time but i'm always wanting to party. i talk to colin a lot more lately, i have an inhaler, i still wish i had a boyfriend to cuddle with in the winter season. fencing season is over, i am enrolled in a hip-hop dance class for PE. i bit jordan and now everyone is freaking out. my car is dead and i need to drive so badly. my room is still a wreck. i am still fat. umm... i still heart jason? everyone is changing but i don't know why.
i like this weather though.
"Are you kidding, i love pink!!!!" -garrett
"miss you more than a G&D's sundae... and that's a lot girl!!!" -alexandra aka xander
"me as well. had a dream about oxford." -chloe aka chachi
"miss and luv you... i'll be back from africa on sept second. email me. " -katie
"it is nine forty five in the morning and i'm eating ravioli. wish i had capn crunch." later on, "let's trade." and then "meet you at the METROPLEX then." -chachi
"my dad says go pc" -anna. i love that her dad seriously contemplated my computer crisis.
"ME TOO it is dumb it is SO DUMB what are you doing right now? are you in church? what times is it in texas anywho?" -erica. mind you it was saturday.
"haha is it your parents that are making you do that? haha random AND I FORGOT TAHT TODAY WAS SATURDAY AND I THOUGHT IT WAS SUNDAY i have a question for you: did you get drunk the last night at oxford?" -erica. hey, i'm mormon.
"fog danger!" -adam
"sorry you had to eat alone. i am dead tired. i still love you! you were the perfect wedding date!" -mary
"we're going to el fenix. can you meet us there?" -mom. monumental b/c it was the first time i had gotten a text from her, and it was the day that her orders were dropped.
"OMG i'm taking film studies for school and it's like oxford all over again." -erica. OH MY GOSH I MISS MY ASHUN.
"i never knew lovely ladies cared so much. what are you guys up to?" -colin. i was with my friends. we cared that he didn't feel good or something like that.
"ineternet danger!" -adam. on "cry wolf"
"i love you too, hottt stuff." -mary
"mmm... injured boys..." -annie. i completely agree.
"can i take it back another night? do you need it tonight?" -colin, on the plate of mine that i left at his house. like, yeah, i have no other plates and only that one plate is necessary. TONIGHT.
"more like ***** and JULIA ACTION!!!" -annie. let's keep this name unknown, shall we?
"i only condone the phrase annie action. anything else doesn't flow." -colin. pff.
"it's great to think your family doesn't trust me. :( " -colin.
"i am completely miserable, san diego." -margaret. gosh i miss that kid.
"sorry i didn't talk to you long. cograts on your fencing. i've never won first place in my life. i'll try and call you this week, i'm just super busy" -margaret
"i'm in physics. it's not very entertaining. glad your a warrior." -colin
"cheer up emo girl. i'll always make you happy :) " -colin. umm... that made me so happy.
"i know, it's like the most adorable song ever written." -margaret, on "morning view" by silver scooter. i know, it is amazing.
"whew. done with my test. when you messaged me i was doing my problem bank for physics. it ws intense." -colin. YOU THINK? i'm pretty sure he had sent me a message in the middle of the test earlier, too.
"julia you take offense to everything. your texts always bring me out of my annoying school bubble. shouldn't you be in class?" -colin. maybe i'm paranoid.
"sounds fun. isn't that a messy business?" -colin, on ceramics. who says that? love it.
"i'm calling you this weekend. i have to get glasses." -chachi. i always knew you had it in ya.
"well now it's official: i am a true dork." -chachi. haha, YESSS
"i'll talk to you later this weekend-- sissy hour bedtime." -chachi. it's true, she always goes to bed at really lame hours.
"i waved bye but you never saw." -colin.
"hmmm you confuse me so much. why don't you just say what you need to say?" and then, "julia, what is your hunch exactly? stop speaking in riddles" and then, "julia you didn't fail me at all. she finally told me the truth. i just needed closure. she said she is not sure whether she loves him but won't let him go." -colin
"no YOU'RE hot." -annie
"JULES! thank you so much for the bowl, candies, and book! the bowl is so pretty i can't believe you made it!!" -rachel
"aww you're so lucky... i agree completely. why are girls so complicated?" -colin, on fires and hot chocolate, and then he just threw in that girl thing last minute.
"i'm sorry i'm a jerk to you." -colin. finally.
"ya ya whateva julia jones. you know how emo i am now. how was your day?" -colin as usual.
"but i didn't have a mountain, julia. i had a camera and a microphone." -margaret.
"i don't see how a pumpkin can be emo. whatev. your dad gives good essay advice. btw youd be proud of me. i'm writing decently." -colin fatty
"you are the most random person i have ever met. btw i need you next to me in seminary from now on." -colin. that message made me happy for a really long time. don't quite know why... anyway, i told him i didn't think it could work, and he says, "don't think we can sit next to each other? sure we can. don't make me go emo on you julia."
"i know. i'm the best." -colleen AHHH TOTAL CLONE.
"julia you are always bored. and how do you have so much time in school to always text? and i really like brand new." -colin.
anyway, fans, you have missed a lot. i went to the sleep clinic last night and got electrodes stuck ALL OVER MY BODY and today i was tested positive for hidden asthma, colin came over on halloween and we had our second annual lame "darkness falls" movie watching thing, i've started going to a trainer and am doing like seriously intense work out routines, i'm exaughsted all the time but i'm always wanting to party. i talk to colin a lot more lately, i have an inhaler, i still wish i had a boyfriend to cuddle with in the winter season. fencing season is over, i am enrolled in a hip-hop dance class for PE. i bit jordan and now everyone is freaking out. my car is dead and i need to drive so badly. my room is still a wreck. i am still fat. umm... i still heart jason? everyone is changing but i don't know why.
i like this weather though.