people may or may not know that i have issues with my health that have yet to be resolved. its not something i talk about a lot, probably because its only been drawn to my attention for a few months now. anyway, i had to get blood work done to see how my blood functions are going. i have "heightened liver functions" ie my liver is just fatty. and also "there are issues with clotting." only the nurses assistant answered the phone, so i'm still waiting to hear from the actually one, but i'm really nervous. if i do have a clotting problem... thats a life of medication, and i don't know also if that means i can or cannot have kids.
anyway, aside from that, classes start next week. sigh. i guess i'm excited to have something to do. my room is almost completely organized and clean, which, if you know me well, is quite the feat.
for the past few days i've been able to visit some old friends from freshman year. it was really fun, the first night we met at border's and then went back to their apartment to chat. it was surreal but very normal to see them all again. then the next night, me and jacob k, justin, and a few of their friends went to eat at india palace. it was super fun and delicious. stayed up talking in their living room but i felt i was overstaying my welcome and i kind of felt stupid when i left. also, went to talk with evann, which was fun, entertaining, and insightful.
anyway, the more i know, when i find it out, i will inform all those non-existent readers out there. basically just myself way into the future.
August 27, 2010
August 23, 2010
back to school, back to school.
WOW, what a week. like a flurry that they are the entire family came into town to witness margaret and john's graduation. it was a lot of fun. i got to spend time with mary and mark, who are shining stars in an otherwise cloudy night. jordan and zach as well as mom and dad, margaret and john, it was just so much fun to have everyone back together. i know we all wish that we could be together always. our bond is so strong.
we did a bunch. mary and mark, dad and zach, all went to some nearby courts to play tennis. we heard margaret's (unfortunate) commencement speech, ate at diego's, went to bear lake, moved into my apartment, moved margaret's things out of her apartment, etc.
jordan, zach, and mom stayed an extra week. and even though i was definitely unnecessarily grumpy almost the entire week, it was so much fun. jordan and i got to hang out a lot since she was the only one who slept over at my house. we got to go to the water park, eat lunch together, see vampires suck and eat pray love, go to the mall, and just enjoy the general splendor that is college. i hope they had a good time. i know a lot of it was boring because me and margaret were both shifting our lives so they had to do a lot of work.
dad came back for a siblings reunion so i got to see him one extra day. he helped us move, gave me a blessing, and margaret and i got to sleep over at barbara's (super posh) apartment in salt lake city.
so now its time for school. i don't start classes until next wednesday but i got a job!!! yes i did! interviewed a week ago and got a yes two hours later! i'm also thinking of applying to this study abroad office job. it would be nice to get more hours in, but that would lead to little social life. and in my dad's blessing it said i need to be a lot more social this semester. BLARG.
anyway, yesterday i was able to visit with rebekah. she and i watched amelie and ate popcorn and chatted. then melinda came over and we all talked until about one in the morning. today i've been organizing the INSANE amount of papers, notebooks, and just nick knacks that have no place. it's a LOT of work. my drawers are all bursting at the seems and i've already given away six bags of clothing. i have some more bags and pants and things to go through.
well, i have to go because tonight we're all hanging out again. WITH ANDRES. which should be fun. its a mini vienna study abroad reunion!
my week is filling up and it definitely feels good. i hope this semester is good. it feels pretty well balanced.
we did a bunch. mary and mark, dad and zach, all went to some nearby courts to play tennis. we heard margaret's (unfortunate) commencement speech, ate at diego's, went to bear lake, moved into my apartment, moved margaret's things out of her apartment, etc.
jordan, zach, and mom stayed an extra week. and even though i was definitely unnecessarily grumpy almost the entire week, it was so much fun. jordan and i got to hang out a lot since she was the only one who slept over at my house. we got to go to the water park, eat lunch together, see vampires suck and eat pray love, go to the mall, and just enjoy the general splendor that is college. i hope they had a good time. i know a lot of it was boring because me and margaret were both shifting our lives so they had to do a lot of work.
dad came back for a siblings reunion so i got to see him one extra day. he helped us move, gave me a blessing, and margaret and i got to sleep over at barbara's (super posh) apartment in salt lake city.
so now its time for school. i don't start classes until next wednesday but i got a job!!! yes i did! interviewed a week ago and got a yes two hours later! i'm also thinking of applying to this study abroad office job. it would be nice to get more hours in, but that would lead to little social life. and in my dad's blessing it said i need to be a lot more social this semester. BLARG.
anyway, yesterday i was able to visit with rebekah. she and i watched amelie and ate popcorn and chatted. then melinda came over and we all talked until about one in the morning. today i've been organizing the INSANE amount of papers, notebooks, and just nick knacks that have no place. it's a LOT of work. my drawers are all bursting at the seems and i've already given away six bags of clothing. i have some more bags and pants and things to go through.
well, i have to go because tonight we're all hanging out again. WITH ANDRES. which should be fun. its a mini vienna study abroad reunion!
my week is filling up and it definitely feels good. i hope this semester is good. it feels pretty well balanced.
August 16, 2010
boy oh boy what an emotionally draining week.
it started out on around thursday. mary and mark flew in and we all, plus my dad, went out to dinner at the mi cocina near the airport. it was a fun meal, and great to catch up with everyone. at the airport, mary and i bought matching DON'T MESS WITH TEXAS shirts and wore them on the plane, to embarrass our mom when we got to utah. i had the very last seat in the corner of the plane, and there was a babyseat in front of me meaning it was pushed all the way back the entire flight. that aside, it was so much fun to have the entire family around. it was like a mini-reunion and i absolutely loved having mark around.
we all dropped our things off and jordan slept over at my house. the next morning we met and hung around, went to margaret and john's graduation speech in the afternoon, went swimming, and ate at the always cheap and sometimes reliable el salvador restaurant. the next day was the actual graduation ceremony and while the talks were awful, it was fun to watch margaret and john walked and really got me amped up to hurry up and graduate and move on with my life.
mary and i snuck off to the 'twilight zone' on campus where they have snacks and other such things. then we ate diego's tacos as soon as it opened. after lunch, we hung out in the hotel, went swimming, which was really fun. we all swam around and pushed each other over and it was just genuine good fun.
saturday we all drove up to bear lake. its a fun drive this time of year because on 89 there are tons of fresh fruit stands you can stop at and get delicious fruits. the gooseberries and raspberries were the best, i thought. bear lake was fun, the water was clear and there was no algae or any such thing. there weren't a lot of forests around it like i thought there would be, and there were a lot more people than i thought there would be, as well.
in SLC we met allie at the restaurant settebello, which is one of the best pizzerias in america, no lie. the chef is from italy and all his goods are imported. they have this one dessert which is so good; they use a pizza crust and cover it with powdered sugar, nutella, and almonds. usually it comes with bananas, too, but i don't like them in my desserts. we all trekked back to the hotel and half of us arose the next morning for church and half of us slept in. that afternoon my dad had to go home and it was really sad to see him leave. our family being together happens so rarely anymore that once people start leaving, its just a bummer. so dad left and we all went to carol's. knowing what happened there, it was actually an ok night. there were tears, and it was sad.
anyway, monday morning mary and mark had to leave super early. i hated to see them go. mom, jordan, and zach are left for the rest of the week, which does not seem to be a very relaxing one. i have things to organize in my house, things to unpack and clean, things to throw away, and some siblings to entertain/ put to work.
well, its dinner time. i should go.
it started out on around thursday. mary and mark flew in and we all, plus my dad, went out to dinner at the mi cocina near the airport. it was a fun meal, and great to catch up with everyone. at the airport, mary and i bought matching DON'T MESS WITH TEXAS shirts and wore them on the plane, to embarrass our mom when we got to utah. i had the very last seat in the corner of the plane, and there was a babyseat in front of me meaning it was pushed all the way back the entire flight. that aside, it was so much fun to have the entire family around. it was like a mini-reunion and i absolutely loved having mark around.
we all dropped our things off and jordan slept over at my house. the next morning we met and hung around, went to margaret and john's graduation speech in the afternoon, went swimming, and ate at the always cheap and sometimes reliable el salvador restaurant. the next day was the actual graduation ceremony and while the talks were awful, it was fun to watch margaret and john walked and really got me amped up to hurry up and graduate and move on with my life.
mary and i snuck off to the 'twilight zone' on campus where they have snacks and other such things. then we ate diego's tacos as soon as it opened. after lunch, we hung out in the hotel, went swimming, which was really fun. we all swam around and pushed each other over and it was just genuine good fun.
saturday we all drove up to bear lake. its a fun drive this time of year because on 89 there are tons of fresh fruit stands you can stop at and get delicious fruits. the gooseberries and raspberries were the best, i thought. bear lake was fun, the water was clear and there was no algae or any such thing. there weren't a lot of forests around it like i thought there would be, and there were a lot more people than i thought there would be, as well.
in SLC we met allie at the restaurant settebello, which is one of the best pizzerias in america, no lie. the chef is from italy and all his goods are imported. they have this one dessert which is so good; they use a pizza crust and cover it with powdered sugar, nutella, and almonds. usually it comes with bananas, too, but i don't like them in my desserts. we all trekked back to the hotel and half of us arose the next morning for church and half of us slept in. that afternoon my dad had to go home and it was really sad to see him leave. our family being together happens so rarely anymore that once people start leaving, its just a bummer. so dad left and we all went to carol's. knowing what happened there, it was actually an ok night. there were tears, and it was sad.
anyway, monday morning mary and mark had to leave super early. i hated to see them go. mom, jordan, and zach are left for the rest of the week, which does not seem to be a very relaxing one. i have things to organize in my house, things to unpack and clean, things to throw away, and some siblings to entertain/ put to work.
well, its dinner time. i should go.
August 09, 2010
"The crux of the biscuit is the apostrophe." - dad
ok, i have officiously heard the worst song of all time. i was flipping through the radio today and this is what i found. all i heard were the last lyrics, but when i heard them i thought, "my gosh. what have we come to, really, where this can make it on the radio?"
the lyrics:
just like a tattoo
i'll always have you.
forget laser surgery or anything... that tattoo, AND THAT MAN, is with you forever.
it has been a weird weird weird.... weird... week. i have been so emotional lately, i honestly don't know what to do with myself. i think fat camp would solve all my problems. i could be with fat kids and be forced to eat healthy and do fun stuff like badminton. little known fact: I LOVE BADMINTON.
what else? i'm leaving for utah so soon. it's weird, i'd actually forgotten all about it, but then the other day i was like... oh wait, i have to start saying my goodbyes because i'm actually leaving really soon. bummer times, right?
mum and da took me out to eat at a very fancy shmancy restaurant for a goodbye dinner slash check-up-to-see-why-you-keep-crying-dinner. to answer that question would take hours. there are so many things going on, in school, in hormone levels fluctuating, in fear and insecurities, etc. etc. i freaking cried at that rice krispies commercial where the mom put the kids locker combination on a rice krispie and put it in his pocket. and it was all "love mom" and i was crying so hard for no reason. seriously, what is wrong with me?
anyway, the dinner was very nice and my dad emphatically also took me to get mango sticky rice at mango thai. this place has bomb sticky rice (assuming the mangoes are ripe and in season). however, i almost feel like asian mint has the best yellow curry. for anyone interested.
so now my summer in dallas draws to an end. have i learned anything? i've learned i have control issues. i've learned i eat when i'm emotional and also because i just have a real passion for food. i learned i'm not really patient with anyone. i realized i actually do kind of secretly want a boyfriend but definitely not as bad as i did when i was a freshman and sophmore. i learned that i have the most pride for my high school when compared to any other institution i've dealt with in my life. i realized i def didn't put my retainer in enough this summer. that my brother is actually quite the chatter box if you listen and talk with him. that jordan is totally beautiful and funny and we actually get along quite well. that i actually really do love my sisters dog. that my parents are incredible. and that i really really actually like taylor swift songs as embarrassing as that is. oh, and that i like almost any TV show ABC produces. and i also learned that sometimes i like pain a lot more than i should, that i relish in being sad, and i'm actually pretty smart.
what have you learned? if anyone is out there.
the lyrics:
just like a tattoo
i'll always have you.
forget laser surgery or anything... that tattoo, AND THAT MAN, is with you forever.
it has been a weird weird weird.... weird... week. i have been so emotional lately, i honestly don't know what to do with myself. i think fat camp would solve all my problems. i could be with fat kids and be forced to eat healthy and do fun stuff like badminton. little known fact: I LOVE BADMINTON.
what else? i'm leaving for utah so soon. it's weird, i'd actually forgotten all about it, but then the other day i was like... oh wait, i have to start saying my goodbyes because i'm actually leaving really soon. bummer times, right?
mum and da took me out to eat at a very fancy shmancy restaurant for a goodbye dinner slash check-up-to-see-why-you-keep-crying-dinner. to answer that question would take hours. there are so many things going on, in school, in hormone levels fluctuating, in fear and insecurities, etc. etc. i freaking cried at that rice krispies commercial where the mom put the kids locker combination on a rice krispie and put it in his pocket. and it was all "love mom" and i was crying so hard for no reason. seriously, what is wrong with me?
anyway, the dinner was very nice and my dad emphatically also took me to get mango sticky rice at mango thai. this place has bomb sticky rice (assuming the mangoes are ripe and in season). however, i almost feel like asian mint has the best yellow curry. for anyone interested.
so now my summer in dallas draws to an end. have i learned anything? i've learned i have control issues. i've learned i eat when i'm emotional and also because i just have a real passion for food. i learned i'm not really patient with anyone. i realized i actually do kind of secretly want a boyfriend but definitely not as bad as i did when i was a freshman and sophmore. i learned that i have the most pride for my high school when compared to any other institution i've dealt with in my life. i realized i def didn't put my retainer in enough this summer. that my brother is actually quite the chatter box if you listen and talk with him. that jordan is totally beautiful and funny and we actually get along quite well. that i actually really do love my sisters dog. that my parents are incredible. and that i really really actually like taylor swift songs as embarrassing as that is. oh, and that i like almost any TV show ABC produces. and i also learned that sometimes i like pain a lot more than i should, that i relish in being sad, and i'm actually pretty smart.
what have you learned? if anyone is out there.
August 07, 2010
oh how my head pounds! last night i had a last hurrah with a bunch of friends. me and antoinette carpooled to the ever delicious blue goose where Ian, Caroline, Courtney, and Annie were all sitting at a table waiting for us! This is the best group of girls (ian included, ha) and it was so much fun. we sat around for a while and just talked about funny things (i forgot the really funny story courtney told), and then after an hour and a half or so, we decided to go. we went to antoinette's house to regroup and collect and then went to samars's for talking, drinks, and just general fun.
the reason my head hurts is because i stayed behind to talk with antoinette until 340 in the morning. it was just so good to talk about the old days and what we're dealing with now and things we're concerned about. what plans we have for the future and stuff like that. i've had a lot on my mind lately and it was so good to just pour it all out and talk about everything.
we both got hungry and decided to eat at Cane's.
Raisin' Cane's (as its actually called) is such a southern delight. i'm not sure its anywhere outside of here, but its just one of the many reasons people should move here. you get delicious texas toast, hot crinkle cut fries, and incredibly tender, juicy chicken strips with such delightful thin batter that just... MMMMM. that's all i can say. and apparently on the weekends it's open until 3 o'clock in the morning.
so we ate cane's at an ungodly hour, in the parking lot, while talking about life. over near highland park. its just one of those moments in time where you think, "man that was fun. i wish every day could be as fun as that day."
i'm going to miss this girls this coming semester. we've all been through so much together over so many years. they know all my problems and went through all the issues i had to go through. i hope this coming semester proves to be better.
other things to note:
i got my hair cut. it was just a trim, really, but it feels so healthy now.
its 105 here and it hurts just to go outside
margaret and john and roeschti leave in like an hour and i'm going to miss them all so much, but i really am going to miss roeschti. she's been the cuddler by my feet every night, bringing me warmth and comfort. :(
more later.
the reason my head hurts is because i stayed behind to talk with antoinette until 340 in the morning. it was just so good to talk about the old days and what we're dealing with now and things we're concerned about. what plans we have for the future and stuff like that. i've had a lot on my mind lately and it was so good to just pour it all out and talk about everything.
we both got hungry and decided to eat at Cane's.
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| The best chicken fingers you'll ever get at a fast food restaurant. |
so we ate cane's at an ungodly hour, in the parking lot, while talking about life. over near highland park. its just one of those moments in time where you think, "man that was fun. i wish every day could be as fun as that day."
i'm going to miss this girls this coming semester. we've all been through so much together over so many years. they know all my problems and went through all the issues i had to go through. i hope this coming semester proves to be better.
other things to note:
i got my hair cut. it was just a trim, really, but it feels so healthy now.
its 105 here and it hurts just to go outside
margaret and john and roeschti leave in like an hour and i'm going to miss them all so much, but i really am going to miss roeschti. she's been the cuddler by my feet every night, bringing me warmth and comfort. :(
more later.
August 06, 2010
A few things, before my life begins to speed up and I'm projected into a cataclysmic sphere of CRAZY.
I love Atlas Shrugged. I love it so much. I love competent, hard working people that know what they want.
I've realized something over a few days. and i'm not about to boast about myself for hours on end, but there is something i think is pretty legit about me, and that's how i treat my friends.
the more i think about how hard it is to find a reliable, good friend these days, the more frustrated i get. now don't get me wrong, i have some of the craziest, funniest friends in the world. but here, i'll give you a situation.
say a friend of mine wants to do something, asked all of the friends in the group if they could do that one thing. they all plan on it. then that friend has a really bad day, and just can't go out. if she calls me crying, or texts me really upset, i would no doubt put everything else in my life on hold, and either go comfort that friend, or listen to their problems. and i would for sure not go to the movie.
for some reason, this just doesn't happen in real life. people are selfish, people do what makes them feel good and often don't go for the thing that is right, just and good, but for the easy and more comfortable way out.
and don't even get me started about when a boy is in the picture.
so that is one thing i just... i'm just really annoyed by lately. and yes, that situation did happen, and yes, everyone still went to see the movie. yes i'm a baby and should get over it, but in all fairness, things really had gone awfully yesterday.
i have a lot on my mind grapes. so many big big big things are coming up that i'm just not ready for or i just don't want to deal with. i want to transfer to a big city. i want reliable friends. i want self control and a normal routine.
anyway, that's about all i've got. i need to go to sleep and prepare for the weekend -- my last weekend in Dallas -- before i go back to school. all i have to say is BOOOOOOO.