so these past few weeks have been super insane, there is no way around that. i went home for the weekend because there were some really cheap tickets from here, so i got to see my family for a few days. it was fun and at the same time really stressful. i loved the time i was able to spend with my mom. my dad was busy doing this work project the entire time i was there so i didn't get to see him very much. jordan and zach didn't seem really interested, so i didn't see them very much. but i had a great time and i love my home and my family and it feels so good to be with them.
and then i got a call from my doctor. not only to i have a fatty liver but i have a failure thyroid, sugar, mutated blood, and high testosterone and sugar. COOL. so i have to get medicines and figure out all my hormone imbalances and all this stuff.
today was my first day at work. i only work every other saturday, basically, because i work at the football games. but it was so insanely hot and i was on my feet for seven hours which was killer and now i just really need a foot massage: reason number one i need a husband.
yesterday i got to see kelsey. she and i picked out her invitations for her wedding. it felt exciting to me because i felt really important. it felt good to know that my opinion mattered and that i'd see the result of our ideas when it arrives in the mail. its also kind of depressing because i don't care what anyone says, once a friend is married/ engaged, everything changes. you pretty much lose that friend.
then margaret and i got lunch together, at the rio, and then walked her dog to my friends house. rebekah came over to relax and try to get over a tough break up. i tried to distract her and help her as best i could. she fell asleep on my bed (its really easy to do) and so she ended up sleeping over for the second day in a row.
my classes are alright. i LOVE my intro to advertising class and i like my sociology class alright. my media writing class will be the death of me and my mission prep class is interesting if not a bit overwhelming. the homework for all these classes is really intense, so that's probably what the most difficult thing is. my dad told me to be more social this semester, slash he gave me a blessing that said that i needed to do that. but now i'm having trouble balancing all my friends. i haven't done any of the homework that i need to have done for this week. GRR!!! there is always so much to do.
i had a dream and my grandpa jones (who is dead) was in it. it was very weird.
anyway, last night or the other night, i can't remember, i thought about margaret leaving and i freaked out. i've had her here ALWAYS and i'm really starting to worry about her leaving and me being here alone. i HATE not having family around. its the worst.
well, that's about it. my life isn't all that interesting these days. i miss having a life though. i mean, i'm seeing people, i'm going to classes and church and everything, but i don't do anything artistic, i don't take pictures, i don't go to exhibits. i have to kick my OWN butt cause no one else is going to do it for me.