wow, it has literally almost been one year since i've written on this thing. i'm not sure if its the fact that lauren blogged freshman year, and it reminded me or what, but i feel like, going to paris, perhaps i SHOULD. start again. so... what happened in the last year? first semester of college was pretty rough, but the last one made up for it so many times over. i met the coolest people, and i think i myself changed a lot too. lauren, angela, ian, jacob, jacob, javier, rydge... i met a lot of people. i think i hurt a lot of people's feelings too, which was unintentional, and i didn't even realize it until now. i went to visit oregon last week. i had a blast, but then i realized that i was really selfish on the trip. half the reason i went was to visit lauren, and i didn't make it a priority to visit with her... so ended up not seeing her at all. and i was thinking that, if i were her, i would've been upset, so i can understand why she is. i'm just not a very good friend, anymore i don't think. i'm pretty selfish with my emotions and i don't think very rationally. i guess i just really wanted to spend a lot of time with the boys before i said goodbye to them for two years... but i could've planned it better. i have a job right now, but it only pays 7.25 an hour, which is very upsetting. so... i might be moving. to like, anthro or something. we will see... i leave for paris in the fall. i'm going to be studying there and i can't wait. i think i just need a break from the familiar... or do i? maybe i've moved around so much, that my body is freaking out and i just need to settle down. either way, its happening.