the sun will heat the ground under our bare feet

ok so i was sitting here in my much too comfortable desk chair and i was reading over some of my old posts and some of my recent posts. and suddenly, i realized that i've changed my whole blog to fit how i want my readers to view me. so, maybe my blog will be more depressing because i'll actually be stating how i feel, but i don't know yet.
i realized today that there are so many sides to me. no one i know know's every side to me. i'm so multi-demensional i scare myself sometimes. i mean, one point i'm all giggly, and the next one i'm all indie rock and hating everyone. ha.
mary and i both complained today about how much we want boyfriends. mary is becoming very desperate. i am becoming very annoyed. just come ask me out why don't you.
school starts again monday. i forgot today. it wasn't until a few hours ago that i realized i do have a life and commitments. and that sucks.
my bed was so warm this morning. i woke up, and the sun was coming through little slates in my window pains, and little light squares were scattered all over my face and on my bed. and i curled up further into the sheets and realized how much i love sleep. and it kind of made me laugh. like i'm in a relationship with sleep. ha that makes me laugh just thinking about it. my bed is too comfy for it's own good. with all the pillows and blankets around me i just get sucked into it and i never want to come out again. i realized i hate waking up to an alarm clock. i like leisurly waking up and realizing i'm alive and well and curling back into bed and just slowly getting up.
i cried today. watching pollyanna. i'd never seen it all the way through before, isn't that funny. i think i cried the other day too, but i don't remember why. i just remember being sad. funny how fast i forget things like that, isn't it?