oh my gosh my brain feels mashed in. my eyes are sore and heavy and there is absolutely no reason for this.
tomorrow i start my new internship. i'm nervous and excited and a little bit wary but i know how important it is to have experience, really any kind of experience, when you leave college and are looking for a job. so hopefully this will be an awesome experience on and off paper.
also, i checked my weight at the beginning of last week and then again this morning. how is losing 11 pounds in one week possible? i mean, i'm sure most of it is water weight but still. i felt pretty shocked and proud of myself. it's been difficult but the past few days have been much easier. the dull ache of hunger doesn't send me into a tizzy anymore. i just realize i need to snack, grab a decaf, or eat a meal. it's no big. saturdays make it easier to break up the week. as long as i survive the rough week, i know i have one day where i can eat like a queen.
new york is, as always, an adventure. i'm getting more self confidence here and with that comes the cat calling. normally its something i'd shy away from or even get nervous about but, it doesn't really bother me anymore. for some reason my hair just really lights the fires of the local puerto ricans here.
saturday was our beach day. mary and i woke up and hurried as we got dressed. we met her friend mary south at a local coffee shop to get breakfast to go. we walked to the metro and after a couple of transfers, we were headed to rockaway beach. the commute was long but definitely worth it. it was fun leaving the city, even if for just a five hour block. we met my cousin brooke there, and mary south had friends trickle in over the hours. we played in the atlantic for a while, bracing the cold and actually getting completely covered in sea water. it was very freeing.
after our bout in the water we walked to the rockaway taco stand. from what i understood, this is kind of a necessity if you visit the beach. the line was long but the tacos were delicious and worth the wait. they didn't have chicken tacos (anto) which was a bummer. while sitting down we heard a few french guys talking. i starting speaking with them in french and asked where they were from (paris) and what they were doing here (working for a short while). it was so interesting talking with them. i had no qualms about language boundaries. even though i'm not fluent in french by any means, i am confident i can get across what i need to. and i did. we spoke in english and in french about summers and what each of us was planning on and experiencing. they told me my accent was very good, which made me beam. always a high compliment to receive.
after the beach had lost its luster we packed up and headed home. by the time we got back i realized i was really quite badly burned on the right side of my body... probably should've prepared myself for that but i wanted to feel the burn of the sun one last time because.... that evening i started accutane. as many people know that is a very powerful acne medication. no, my acne is not that bad but this medication will, hopefully, make it so that i don't break out anymore in the future. so its a little freaky to be taking a medication that has a pregnant lady with a giant line through her belly over every tab but hopefully all will turn out well.
because the diet i'm on is so healthy and well balanced, my body has been dealing with its weird issues much better. i sincerely hope i can keep this pattern of living up through the rest of the summer and into the school year. its hard because it mostly involves cooking at home and i run out of easy/ quick methods of food preparation very quickly. so i need to prepare for that. also, walking all over the place in new york helps a lot, too.
anyway, i have many more adventures ahead of me. i still need to stroll through central park, shop for a dress for my cousin's wedding, explore the area near where i work, the area near mary's apartment. i need to go farther north, maybe to maine, and see the trees and that freezing ocean. i need to find quirky shops and explore this city with as much tenacity as i did in paris.
anyway, that's about it for now. i'm very tired and i need to rest for my big day tomorrow! more to come, as always.