i honestly should be doing my french/ shakespeare homework, but tonight i'm just not finding the motivation. all DAY today i haven't had the motivation.
this weekend i went to los angeles. it was super fun. the weather was perfect pretty much every day. i went to the beach twice... venice beach and some random beach in malibu. it was beautiful. i went to the beach in malibu after visiting the getty villa. it was an incredible moment in time... dolphins (literally) were jumping close to shore. the sun was beating against my shoulders. i felt happy and beautiful. i went to some USC parties and made some friends, lost some friends, and then came back to utah. where it's freezing and not nearly as friendly or joyful. but today was eventful. i talked with my roommate heidi, went to in n' out to celebrate melinda's decemberists day with her and daniel, got home, sat and thought, talked with my mom and dad, went to a friend's mission farewell, had a good talk with dan, hung out with him and the jacobs for a while, went home. talked with parents. thought about study abroad. thought about getting a job.
this semester... homework is just not working out for me. i have no motivation to do it. what's my deal? i'm not even taking that many classes but i still have no motivation to do anything. i actually googled "how to get motivated to do your homework." that had some valid ideas on there, but it's all do tomorrow and my brain feels too foggy right now. so foggy.
i submitted my application to advertising. knowing my luck i won't get in, but it's something i'm really passionate about. so i really hope i do. also i would be really embarrassed if i were 1/3 of the people denied. i put a lot of work into that application.
anyway, that's all for now. i should probably say other things but i'm feeling kind of empty right now.