boy oh boy.

Boy. Boy oh boy. I am in a suuuuper weird mood today. And i'm not sure what i think about it. i'm feeling quite a few emotions. i went to lunch with kelsey and aaron today (to mi ranchito, which was better than i remember it being). it was fun to reminisce and it almost felt like we weren't in utah. which was fun. i need to get out of here soon, i feel like my brain is melting in. i got super crazy pumped up for some reason, so we went to the mall and walked around and looked at cute clothes and make-up and i daydreamed i had money. which, as it turns out, i so don't. i have 28 dollars.
then i went home. i went home and i sat down for an hour looking up apartments. apartment hunting here is like carefully slicing off your face and laying it down on a road and then having a race of bikers drive over it. i hate it. i hate searching and searching with another person is even more impossible. i feel really bad, i ended up signing a contract for spring/ summer and fall/winter without kelly. well, i'll probably sign it tomorrow or some such thing. but i have a place in mind. i'm really hoping one of the condos opens and we can at least be neighbors.
after that i ran to melinda's house, ran to my house, and we ran to zumba. i love zumba. today we got to put on belly dancing jingling skirt type things. it was soooooooooo awesome. i love working out with zumba. its just fun.
after THAT i went home and i cooked myself up some dinner. and then i watched a little north and south. and then i thought about how i wish i documented my life in a cooler way. i wish i took more pictures (or at least that i had a good camera). i wish i had the drive to do stuff i love slash i wish i had access to all the tools i would need.
and another wish, i wish i could see the future.
what else? i'm trying this thing called intuitive eating. let's see how this goes. i see my family in 2.5 weeks and i cannot wait. seriously, i can't. i've so needed this.