after seeing oceans twelve and eating at dos charros, i went running, probably around 700. at about 745 my stomach, or i guess a little below my sternum, began to really hurt so i stopped running. i found a hubcap in the middle of the road so i grabbed that and stumbled to a road near my house clutching my stomach. i collapsed onto this yard. the grass smelled sweet, and i'd never smelled sweet grass before. i chose the spot because they inhabitant of the house, a little old lady with shocking white short curly hair, was so nice to me when i went trick-or-treating as a kid, and i felt comforted there. and when i got up, i saw someone backing out of the driveway, but it was a guy and he was indian. then i realized that her house was a little farther up the road, where i saw a smiling cheap cartoony natvitiy scene, and then it made more sense that that was her house. i stopped and admired her very bright fairy lights before stumbling home.
turns out i have an ulcer.
BrandFlippinNew (5:47:53 PM): its my favorite julia!
anonymous letters:
1) sometimes your beliefs bother me, and sometimes your openmindedness annoys me, and sometimes you're super forgiveness is a tad bit too nice, but you're the person i trust telling almost everything to. don't feel bad though, i don't tell anyone everything. i now just keep almost everything quiet. i like observing.
2) you captured me, enlightened me, enthralled me, and broke my heart. i loved you and you didn't even know it. i know you don't care, but it matters to me that we will never and can never have a life together. this causes me more pain than you'll ever know. someday i hope we can run away together just you and me.
3) you lie, you cheat, you sleep around, you say catch phrases an annoying amount of times, and you made me stay up late writing papers for you cause your computer was broken, but you have always said how much you love me and because of that, i thank you.
4) i don't know how i feel about you, and i don't know if i like you as much anymore. i used to like you a lot more. you never knew though. and i doubt you ever will know.
5) i looked up to you and still do more then you'll ever know. you inspire me, you annoy me, and you've influenced me more then anyone in the world. whenever you'd leave i would cry. you changed a little bit, and you still are changing, but i've come to learn that everyone changes, and to other people, i've probably changed a lot too. i love you so much.
6) you worry too much about me and you are kind of obsessive. i like it and i hate it. don't worry about me. i can stand on my own two feet. someday i'll learn that i'm an idiot for doing what i do, but today is not that day.
7) you were my first real emo friend. i love the conversations we share and the cute things you say and how you care about every little creature. i hope you know that you're beautiful, and i hope that we never stop with our emotastic discussions.
8) you my friend, took me in and made me feel important. actually, you my friends. i love each and everyone of you. you always made sure mary included me and you made me feel so important. i've learned so much from you and i wish i got to hug you guys more often. you give really good hugs. i hope we get to stay friends for a very long time.
9) i hate you so much. you've made my life and my parents life miserable. you're the reason i hurt myself. you're the reason my dad and mom are in depression. you have caused 90% of my problems and 100% of our families problems. i hope that you die a really painful death and that no one goes to your funeral and i hope that when you get to heaven that they will look at you with disguist and you're stupid rat eyes will fall down to hell with you. i really really hate you.
oh and i blame you for making me wake up in a depressed and dreary state everyday. i blame you for the scars you have caused me inside and out.
10) When i was a kid you made me cry. in eighth grade you made me cry more then i ever have in my entire life. you've caused me so much pain. you make me cry more then anyone i know, but you also make me laugh more then anyone i know. i hope you don't lose that quirky cuteness you have to yourself and i hope that you stop before it's too late.
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It felt good for me to write those. You?
made my ulcer hurt.
but yeah. i suppose. me thinks i should've made them vaguer. oh well.
Just because they're anonymous doesn't mean they have to be vague. If you look at mine hard enough you can kinda tell who they are. And I'm sorry about your ulcer.
Man, I hate the fact that I'm clearly number nine.
ok... ouch... and thank you? i guess the first two comments are hurtful and the third is true but i wish you didnt see me that way, i wish you saw me as an actual friend... not just someone who keeps you up late. Do you really think im that person. I seriously hope not. After all the things that you've given me (ie. hope (which i believe is the best gift you can give a person)) I would like to think that i have returned some of that favor, but i know i havent come close, not nearly. I spend days at a time wishing i hadnt been a total bitch to you but there isnt anything left to say except that im sorry, but i guess some wounds never heal. Come talk to me sometime, how is your soul doing these days?
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