i thought i posted yesterday, but i guess not. hmm... anyway. we leave tuesday or wedensday, i don't think we've decided yet. i move into margaret's room this summer, some time, which means that i have lived in every room in the upstairs part of our house. cool! i have so much to do today and this week. i have to give a talk this sunday, and i hate giving talks, i get so nervous. i still have to write it, and i have YW tonight, and i need to do stuff with my friends before i leave. there's other stuff but i don't feel like listing it all. hum! well, i better go do stuff, since i have so much to do after all.

I SAW ROONEY! and i met them, i got a backstage pass, and they were so hot! and they ROCKED the stage, and they were so hot, and i had so much fun and my mom was so nice to let me go! and they were so hot! and they signed my album! and they were SO HOT

ok ok ok. i really want to go to the Rooney concert, and its for people of all ages, but mom won't let me go i don't think, she hasn't fully answered but i don't want to push it. so margaret says i can go instead of her, but i want her to go, and my mom won't go if margaret won't go and it makes me very sad

i just found out that not only are we leaving for provo then going to the family reunion, but we will also be going to provo again for one month, but my dad won't be coming. isn't that sad? i love my dad, he's way cool. and i hate thinking about him alone at home. i think i'll go to EFY when i'm there, i'm not sure. mary having respect for me really makes me happy. cause its hard to gain her respect, and i've been trying to tell the family i don't dress that tarty, but no one will listen! today was a very good sunday. my dad gave a very good talk, and for some reason i got along with everyone-- everyone in the halls were smiling and waving at me and giving me hugs, i love my ward, because its so friendly. margaret is taking me to the new paul frank store tomorrow, and i'm super excited, except i'm broke :( so i'm hoping mom and dad will lone me money... :| anyway!i have a ton to do this summer. i want to go to swiss simester, but i have to work out in order to do that, so i have to lose like twenty or more pounds and stuff, and bike ride and jog and all that. and i have so much summer reading and the new harry potter book comes out JUNE 21st and i'm way excited! definatly! i wonder how my friends are doing-- i haven't heard from them all summer! i can't help but wonder if they'll all be my friends, because i still like them a lot and all, but what if we change abruptly and butt heads? hmm. but i think this summer will be a very good experience, i think that i will do a lot of growing and stuff because margaret is leaving and all that.
anyway, its late and i'm tired, so i'll write back later

margaret leaves for college soon and it makes me very sad. because, although it never seemed like we liked eachother, but we have this bonding thing that no one else sees or is a part of.It's like, she's not like everyone else, you know? and it will be really hard to stay here and be the oldest one in the family. i don't care about the priviledges i will get or what it will be like to sit in the front seat of the car, or what it will be like to drive or whatever. playing john lennon's "imagine" while writing this probably wasn't a good idea-- it's gonna be mushy. i don't really want to grow up. people will die and it will be hard, and life won't be fun anymore. people will depend on you a ton, and you don't have the same care-free time. it sucks. and i mean, what if she gets in trouble at college or whatever, or what happens when i need help, and there is no one to turn to. i mean, i love my parents, but they don't see everything from my point of view like my older sisters do. i thought i could handle this cause i'm older then i was with mary, but it'll be just as hard. especially because she's leaving early in the summer instead of later in the summer like mary did.
WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD
Louis Armstrong

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

what a happy song. if i could live in a song, i would live in that one. i think the john lennon song is so sad to me, not because of the lyrics but because margaret loves the beatles so much. and it brings back like a silent video of memories with that song playing, and i know this sounds way cheesy, but it's what's going on in my head right now. so bear with me. i think this summer will be a mucho mais bueno growing experience. zeut allors. je ne comprend pas ma vie. allors, je veux dormir parce que je suis tres fatiguee. bon nuit.
what a wonderful world

i just got back from danielle's party, and i am definately tired! but i had fun. i was introduced to tons of cute people, one in particular :-* and man he was fine and ok, i did dance and ellie did teach me that leg thing the spoon one or whatever, and it was fun, and there was a real DJ and stuff. anyway i'd better go to bed
Jules