margaret leaves for college soon and it makes me very sad. because, although it never seemed like we liked eachother, but we have this bonding thing that no one else sees or is a part of.It's like, she's not like everyone else, you know? and it will be really hard to stay here and be the oldest one in the family. i don't care about the priviledges i will get or what it will be like to sit in the front seat of the car, or what it will be like to drive or whatever. playing john lennon's "imagine" while writing this probably wasn't a good idea-- it's gonna be mushy. i don't really want to grow up. people will die and it will be hard, and life won't be fun anymore. people will depend on you a ton, and you don't have the same care-free time. it sucks. and i mean, what if she gets in trouble at college or whatever, or what happens when i need help, and there is no one to turn to. i mean, i love my parents, but they don't see everything from my point of view like my older sisters do. i thought i could handle this cause i'm older then i was with mary, but it'll be just as hard. especially because she's leaving early in the summer instead of later in the summer like mary did.
WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD
Louis Armstrong

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

what a happy song. if i could live in a song, i would live in that one. i think the john lennon song is so sad to me, not because of the lyrics but because margaret loves the beatles so much. and it brings back like a silent video of memories with that song playing, and i know this sounds way cheesy, but it's what's going on in my head right now. so bear with me. i think this summer will be a mucho mais bueno growing experience. zeut allors. je ne comprend pas ma vie. allors, je veux dormir parce que je suis tres fatiguee. bon nuit.
what a wonderful world