Alright. Two days left. It seems like just yesterday it was twenty seven. crazy. anyway, i am totally excited. but right now i'm so busy worrying about forgetting stuff and my mom not letting my friends come over on friday that i don't have much room for too much excitement. i mean, i've packed quite a bit, but i have a lot of important tidbits (transformers, batteries, MY CAMERA, etc.) to remember to pack and collect. i've got a lot more CD's to burn and organize... i can only lug over one CD case because three would just be too difficult. so i'm being very selective in my musicness. it's hard, you know? anyway. so in a very emo mood today. ohio is for lovers and all that.
i am so sick of seeing boys and their hot abs i could cry.
i need a summer romance.
June 29, 2005
WELL I NEVER!
Your Slanguage Profile |
| British Slang: 75% |
| Canadian Slang: 75% |
| Aussie Slang: 50% |
| New England Slang: 25% |
| Prison Slang: 25% |
| Victorian Slang: 25% |
| Southern Slang: 0% |
SCANDAL!
| Your Summer Love Style is Sultry |
 For you, summer is all about letting go of any inhibitions. You're not shy about getting what you want this summer - and lots of it. Love is the last thing on your mind, but you'll have plenty to keep you busy. |
CARAZY
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
June 27, 2005
Oh, Hey
for those of you in on those kinds of things, the TXT post will be up soon. it's just a draft right now.
anyway. oh, hey.
the road trip was pretty much amazing, except for the making fun of my weight and other things part.
and photos will be up soon, but i need the other computer for that...
and a certain maureen is on that computer.
anyway. oh, hey.
the road trip was pretty much amazing, except for the making fun of my weight and other things part.
and photos will be up soon, but i need the other computer for that...
and a certain maureen is on that computer.
June 22, 2005
June 18, 2005
Look at me Ma!
Hey guys! look how often i've posted! aren't you super proud? alright alright, today i was woken up by the ever incompetent jordan who just couldn't figure out, "how the new smart cards worked." therefore, i fixed the problem and waited for my parents to come back home from wherever they were. at 11:32 we leave for batman begins, which started at 12:05, and we sit in the theater for 10 minutes and all the popcorn is gone. but they were offering free refills today, so it's all good! i went down, ran into a church friend who works at the theater, and then went back into the movie, where of course my name is shouted and i find bethany and colin sitting exactly behind my family. Only in my sick twisted life would this happen. So all through the 2.5 hours of the movie i see all these couples around me cuddling and nuzzling and i'm just all like, "oh forget it," and i bond with the kids. After the movie and awkward goodbyes, my family and i leave so that my mom could collapse in a depressed and exaughsted heap and my dad could roam around the house talking about how he needs to get things done but never quite getting around to doing anything about it.
also, jordan and zack, i have decided, have some serious mental problems. i swear both of them have to have some sort of retardedness in them... that or all kids act this way, which is what my mom says, bringing me to the conclusion that all kids must be retarded.
It's been like, a week, and my new license hasn't come. what's up with that, houston?
so, in less than two weeks now, i will be leaving. i couldn't be happier. i have been working my butt off for so long and i've been sitting and staring at the same wall and or computer screen for so long that i am going insane. i've watched star wars episode three at least fifteen times now, and watched all the other ones at least three times each. I watched Troy (edited!) last night and best week ever and have stopped running because i never have time to leave the house. for example, right now, my mom is still passed out on her bed and my dad is going to get his 3 inches of hair trimmed up for 80 dollars at some salon, and the kids are all running around the house and the neighbour hood like a bunch of primitive idiots. right now, i'd like to go jogging, but oh no wait, i can't.
if anything has inspired me to work out lately it would have to be the following:
1) US magazine
2) hayden christensen's hot abs
3) needing to be pretty for oxford
4) how good nicole richey looks right now
5) how fat i am right now
it's not a very complete list, but it'll do.
and now, i am going to stare at the screen for another 30 minutes. maybe i'll even call mary...
JUST KIDDING. mary is busy watching the OC. apparently things are really heating up. man, now i guess i've just reached an all time low or something.
also, jordan and zack, i have decided, have some serious mental problems. i swear both of them have to have some sort of retardedness in them... that or all kids act this way, which is what my mom says, bringing me to the conclusion that all kids must be retarded.
It's been like, a week, and my new license hasn't come. what's up with that, houston?
so, in less than two weeks now, i will be leaving. i couldn't be happier. i have been working my butt off for so long and i've been sitting and staring at the same wall and or computer screen for so long that i am going insane. i've watched star wars episode three at least fifteen times now, and watched all the other ones at least three times each. I watched Troy (edited!) last night and best week ever and have stopped running because i never have time to leave the house. for example, right now, my mom is still passed out on her bed and my dad is going to get his 3 inches of hair trimmed up for 80 dollars at some salon, and the kids are all running around the house and the neighbour hood like a bunch of primitive idiots. right now, i'd like to go jogging, but oh no wait, i can't.
if anything has inspired me to work out lately it would have to be the following:
1) US magazine
2) hayden christensen's hot abs
3) needing to be pretty for oxford
4) how good nicole richey looks right now
5) how fat i am right now
it's not a very complete list, but it'll do.
and now, i am going to stare at the screen for another 30 minutes. maybe i'll even call mary...
June 16, 2005
Star Wars #8 Suckers
Alright, so i watched the kids and ironed all freaking day, until finally my mom let me off the hook after i did three large pieces of clothes that were not shirts. i went to annie's house, we called antoinette, and we went to the mothership, mi cocina, to eat dinner. there we ran into antoinette's faux boyfriend royal, who was driving his new H flipping 3, and after eating we decided it would be cool to see a movie. i pushed star wars episode III, so on the way to the theater i explained the previous two episodes' plot lines. it was all very intense and exciting. some fantastic quotes came out of the evening, and in general we had a really good time. unfortunately caroline stayed at her house to eat ramen noodles and hang out with her uncle and cousins or something like that. sounds like a bloody waste of time compared to star wars. anyway, i'm leaving because i've got to finish up the restaurant at the end of the galaxy. also, i've got to balance my new checkbook. huzzah.
julia
julia
June 15, 2005
Sad Day Today
the morning sun's about to break,
i'm looking in as you create someone,
you lift your head and brush your teeth,
and make your bed as if you won't sleep again,
you fix your hair and tie your shoes,
and tuck your shirt and now you feel new.
the glass is full, the glass is broke,
and every day dissolves and there's no hope
of ever leaving this temporary life.
of ever leaving this temporary life.
you may ask yourself "is there anyone so alone?"
but there's no beep before the dial-tone
when you pick it up to see who called
if there is it's probably your mom
but, oh, the rising sun brings little cheer
to this city with the stolen name
and you're wondering whose bright idea
it was to pack your things and leave your friends
and move down here.
today was simply not a good day.
i'm looking in as you create someone,
you lift your head and brush your teeth,
and make your bed as if you won't sleep again,
you fix your hair and tie your shoes,
and tuck your shirt and now you feel new.
the glass is full, the glass is broke,
and every day dissolves and there's no hope
of ever leaving this temporary life.
of ever leaving this temporary life.
you may ask yourself "is there anyone so alone?"
but there's no beep before the dial-tone
when you pick it up to see who called
if there is it's probably your mom
but, oh, the rising sun brings little cheer
to this city with the stolen name
and you're wondering whose bright idea
it was to pack your things and leave your friends
and move down here.
today was simply not a good day.
June 12, 2005
My Lifeline!
cactusjack6996: well my dear actually yours are better then most. you take things that mean something to you. your photos have meaning that most others lack. there might be better photos out there that are maniped or whatever but they lack the gritty realness you have. your photos are simply amazing and you as a person are probably one of the greatest i have known. you are so smart and care so much i wish there was more people like you in the world.
I love my online best friends can i just have them follow me all over the place to keep me happy?
I love my online best friends can i just have them follow me all over the place to keep me happy?
Curly Fries and a Large Coke
Ahhhhh hey guys. i want to make this blog more exciting and stuff! so, i'll be updating it more! with more pictures! and more exclimation points!
anywayzzz, today was church. i had really bad cramps so i almost died the whole time. in about two hours and fifteen minutes i am going to a lady from our churches' house for an "ice cream social." she's gonna be my newwww seminary teacher next year! so, i'll be there for a bit and you know, i'll chill with some people. after i'm done updating this, i'm going to go clean my room really intensely so that hopefully after the "ice cream social," i can go to bethany's house and play scrabble with chelsea and jordan, bethany's brother.
So, i leave for oxford in 19 days. my whole family, as i'm sure everyone knows, will be out of town that day, so i will have to go to the airport with my aunt barbra. i wouldn't mind at all, in fact i don't think i do mind, except that i know i'll be crying and really lonely and i'll wish more people where there to hug. oh well.
In other news, i have begun to read all the books written by douglas adam and am falling deeply deeply in love. that and i also deeply deeply am in love with hayden christensen. sigh.
anywayzzz, today was church. i had really bad cramps so i almost died the whole time. in about two hours and fifteen minutes i am going to a lady from our churches' house for an "ice cream social." she's gonna be my newwww seminary teacher next year! so, i'll be there for a bit and you know, i'll chill with some people. after i'm done updating this, i'm going to go clean my room really intensely so that hopefully after the "ice cream social," i can go to bethany's house and play scrabble with chelsea and jordan, bethany's brother.
So, i leave for oxford in 19 days. my whole family, as i'm sure everyone knows, will be out of town that day, so i will have to go to the airport with my aunt barbra. i wouldn't mind at all, in fact i don't think i do mind, except that i know i'll be crying and really lonely and i'll wish more people where there to hug. oh well.
In other news, i have begun to read all the books written by douglas adam and am falling deeply deeply in love. that and i also deeply deeply am in love with hayden christensen. sigh.
June 04, 2005
M-O-D
Alright, so i decided that the blog needed an update, so there you are.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
So an update is due i suppose. we went to missouri, it was nostalgic, it was an adventure, it was fun. i think i had more fun on the road trip than anyone else. probably because i was the one bothering everyone else and not vice versa.
i'm leaving for oxford in one month. i'm tired of telling people this and feeling like they are judging me like the total brat that i am, so i'll just get my excitement out here. i forgot how to spell. so... from tuesday to thursday i was gone on a pioneer trek for church. i was positive that it would be a pretty lame experience. and aside from the leeches and the horrifying discovery of ticks on my way upper thighs (yeah, it was gnarly) it wasn't lame at all. i met some great people, including my new bestest mormon friend ever... todd. i probably like him so much because he was sweet but stern at the same time... and had such faith and such a strong testimony of the church i couldn't believe it. i told him all of my problems in the past... what emo means. he didn't like it very much, but accepted it. i got stuck in a group with three "mentally challenged" (since i don't know what to call it now without offending anyone) people. they taught me a lot of patience and i don't think there is anyone else filled with more love. the experience was all together amazing. i got to see some hotboooods on some boys there when we went swimming... and i got a letter from my parents on the last day. i won't say a lot about what they said, it just made me realize that i don't want to spend too much time away from home. my parents are the people that love me the most in the world... so why am i avoiding them so much? my mom talked a lot about how loving i was as a kid and how i let her love me and protect me and how i won't know. how being a teenager has been really hard for me. so, other than neale-a-palooza, which i believe i am attending tonight, i won't be leaving too much this week. probably once or twice a week.
everybody's going to the p a r t y to have arealgoodtime
anyway, it was mostly an amazing experience. helped me pinpoint my faults... what i need to work on... how much more i need to focus on my faith because my life kind of revolves around it.
today at 1240 my mom and i are going to see sisterhood of the traveling pants (sorry to all my bisches. but like. i gotsta)
There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news
so now i go. i hope that you iiinjoooiii the new photos and updates. i'm sure there will be more to come. after all... it's summer
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.
Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.
So an update is due i suppose. we went to missouri, it was nostalgic, it was an adventure, it was fun. i think i had more fun on the road trip than anyone else. probably because i was the one bothering everyone else and not vice versa.
i'm leaving for oxford in one month. i'm tired of telling people this and feeling like they are judging me like the total brat that i am, so i'll just get my excitement out here. i forgot how to spell. so... from tuesday to thursday i was gone on a pioneer trek for church. i was positive that it would be a pretty lame experience. and aside from the leeches and the horrifying discovery of ticks on my way upper thighs (yeah, it was gnarly) it wasn't lame at all. i met some great people, including my new bestest mormon friend ever... todd. i probably like him so much because he was sweet but stern at the same time... and had such faith and such a strong testimony of the church i couldn't believe it. i told him all of my problems in the past... what emo means. he didn't like it very much, but accepted it. i got stuck in a group with three "mentally challenged" (since i don't know what to call it now without offending anyone) people. they taught me a lot of patience and i don't think there is anyone else filled with more love. the experience was all together amazing. i got to see some hotboooods on some boys there when we went swimming... and i got a letter from my parents on the last day. i won't say a lot about what they said, it just made me realize that i don't want to spend too much time away from home. my parents are the people that love me the most in the world... so why am i avoiding them so much? my mom talked a lot about how loving i was as a kid and how i let her love me and protect me and how i won't know. how being a teenager has been really hard for me. so, other than neale-a-palooza, which i believe i am attending tonight, i won't be leaving too much this week. probably once or twice a week.
everybody's going to the p a r t y to have arealgoodtime
anyway, it was mostly an amazing experience. helped me pinpoint my faults... what i need to work on... how much more i need to focus on my faith because my life kind of revolves around it.
today at 1240 my mom and i are going to see sisterhood of the traveling pants (sorry to all my bisches. but like. i gotsta)
There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news
so now i go. i hope that you iiinjoooiii the new photos and updates. i'm sure there will be more to come. after all... it's summer
