it's the last day of summer. I am sad about this. well. gotsta go and iron... AGAIN!
Well I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground
Then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes
And I said I'd never seen anyone look so dumb before
And you laughed and said I still know how to turn you on though
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like that time I forgot to tell you about the scar
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me
And you're such a great kisser and I know that you'd agree
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
I hope you can forgive me for that time
When I put my hand between your legs
And said it was small
Cause its really not at all
I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around
Causethe day you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me
You're the only one who
Hold my hair back when I'm drunk and gets sick
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
Exactly what I mean
Well I saw you with your hands above your head
Spinning around, trying not to look down
But you did, and you fell, hard on the ground
July 29, 2004
July 28, 2004
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyesI nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voiceI'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our livesI can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyesI nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voiceI'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our livesI can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
July 27, 2004
bessiboo8907: what
Auto response from Shootingstar0107: darn it.
bessiboo8907 returned at 3:35:00 PM.
bessiboo8907: why
Shootingstar0107: because
Shootingstar0107: it was freakin awesome.
bessiboo8907: so write your own
Shootingstar0107: noo i mean
bessiboo8907: it's not that hard
Shootingstar0107: i don't want to post it
Shootingstar0107: i want to put it on my weblog. cause it was freakin awesome
bessiboo8907: hah
Shootingstar0107: i'll do whatever i feel like doin. GOSH
bessiboo8907: haha
Shootingstar0107: have you seen napoleon dynamite?
bessiboo8907: have not, but really would like to get out so as to do that
Shootingstar0107: yep. it's AWESOME
bessiboo8907: well, julia, i can't remember what the message said
Shootingstar0107: DANG IT
Shootingstar0107: DANG IT
Shootingstar0107: coommme OONNN
bessiboo8907: just, well.. fighting the dustbunny guards and the small spider soldiers that are really only pawns of the great tiny silver tube centipede living in his silver lair above the dark closet abyss. and if i don't make it back soon, don't come looking for me, cause that's when we'll explode, and it won't be a pretty sight
bessiboo8907: or something
bessiboo8907: i know the postal service reference fit in there somewhere
Shootingstar0107: freakin awesome
Shootingstar0107: love the postal service
bessiboo8907: death cab is better
Shootingstar0107: hmm.. MAYBE
Shootingstar0107: have you heard of keane?
bessiboo8907: sure haven't
Shootingstar0107: well
bessiboo8907: what's it like
Shootingstar0107: it's like...percipitation muzak
Shootingstar0107: you know.
Shootingstar0107: rain music.
Shootingstar0107: no
bessiboo8907: precipitation
Shootingstar0107: wait... i mean, it's good to listen to.
Shootingstar0107: THAT'S WHAT I SAID, FOOL
bessiboo8907: i like to knit, fool
Shootingstar0107: i watched that
Shootingstar0107: it was funny
bessiboo8907: it's not as funny when it's not at two in the morning
Shootingstar0107: i did watch it at two in the morning
Shootingstar0107: freakin hilarious
bessiboo8907: freakin wicked
Shootingstar0107: ha ha ha
bessiboo8907: julia
Shootingstar0107: bess
bessiboo8907: you're starting to remind me of david the all star drivers ed man
Shootingstar0107: oh i'm sorry... it's from napoleon dynamite. he says freakin all the time
Shootingstar0107: and also "gosh!"
bessiboo8907: well then what's his name is like david
Shootingstar0107: worst day of my life, what do you think
Shootingstar0107: oh no way man
Shootingstar0107: exact oppisite, but totally hilarious
Shootingstar0107: i mean
Shootingstar0107: this guy is a total dork.. ok maybe a little like david, but not really
bessiboo8907: haha
bessiboo8907: julia. you're 16. you drive. by yourself
bessiboo8907: that's kind of scary
Shootingstar0107: where did that come from?
bessiboo8907: i dunno
Shootingstar0107: i'm a safe driver
bessiboo8907: drivers ed
bessiboo8907: flashback to that time you drove by me on welch and screamed and flailed all around
Shootingstar0107: i only yelled hey bess!
bessiboo8907: and flailed all around
Shootingstar0107: then you IMed me like
Shootingstar0107: i didn't flail around, i waved
bessiboo8907: that. was flailing
Shootingstar0107: WAVING
bessiboo8907: FLAILING, JULIA WAS FLAILING, FLAILING LIKE A LONELY CHIMPANZEE IN A DESERTED RAINFOREST
Shootingstar0107: waving... waving like a woman in a 1950's movie, to the man she loves who is leaving on a train to chicago.
bessiboo8907: you just cast me as a man leaving on a train to chicago
bessiboo8907: i will not return your handkerchief waving goodbye
Shootingstar0107: OUCH
Shootingstar0107: dang
Shootingstar0107: today i wanted to go back to school
bessiboo8907: whoa
bessiboo8907: really?
bessiboo8907: i didn't
Shootingstar0107: hm.. sad. it's just cause i was babysitting and today REALLY sucked
Shootingstar0107: soo..
Shootingstar0107: tomorrow i probably will want to go to school too. my grandparents are coming into town
bessiboo8907: it'd be better to have kind of suckage than REALY suckage
Shootingstar0107: hmm.. point taken
bessiboo8907: grandparents are fun though
Shootingstar0107: NOT MINE
bessiboo8907: they smell like antique stores
Shootingstar0107: NOT MINE
bessiboo8907: what do yours smell like?
Shootingstar0107: wood cleaner. and pine treens
bessiboo8907: that smells good
Shootingstar0107: nope.
bessiboo8907: the fresh scent of lysol
bessiboo8907: or pinesole
Shootingstar0107: NOT MINE
Shootingstar0107: just kidding
Shootingstar0107: but really
Shootingstar0107: they may smell good, but they still hate eachother and my grandma still orders me around barking cleaning orders
bessiboo8907: at least your trees aren't slowly dying at the hands of lots of little worm-like arrogant bugs with webs of deceit and the bright bright ugly, wrong, truth
Shootingstar0107: umm...
Shootingstar0107: well. the tree in our backyard is dying. but it's 400 years old.
Shootingstar0107: it's time it got some rest
bessiboo8907: trees live on forever
bessiboo8907: and the party never ends
Shootingstar0107: in my heart, yes, but in reality, the sad truth is, bess, that no, trees do not live on forever. and sometime, no matter how long the party lasts, someone will always make you shut it down. because life is just one. big. cruel. joke.
bessiboo8907: cheer up, emo kid
Shootingstar0107: hold on. the mother calls
Shootingstar0107: i must go. the dismal world of babysitting young children beckans again as the birthmother departs into the world they call the laundrers.
bessiboo8907: put that in the website
bessiboo8907: freakin awesome
Shootingstar0107: ha ha .
Shootingstar0107: ok
Shootingstar0107: actually
bessiboo8907: heeeey julia
bessiboo8907: what is your website
Shootingstar0107: this whole freakin conversation is going on
Shootingstar0107: elsuperstaro.blogspot.com
bessiboo8907: niiiiiiifty
bessiboo8907: you're a superstar
bessiboo8907: that is what you are
Shootingstar0107: yes i know
Shootingstar0107: i'd better go
Shootingstar0107: to the show
Shootingstar0107: that's less than so-so
bessiboo8907: hey now, you're a rockstar
bessiboo8907: get your show on, julia
Shootingstar0107: bye bess!
fighting the dustbunny guards and the small spider soldiers that are really only pawns of the great tiny silver tube centipede living in his silver lair above the dark closet abyss. and if i don't make it back soon, don't come looking for me, cause that's when we'll explode, and it won't be a pretty sight
why is bess freakin awesome!?
why is bess freakin awesome!?
so as i said... WOAH. so.. WOAH. so as i.. so woohh. sooo as i said in my audio post, i totally went to go see napoleon dynamite and it was by far the coolest thing... ever. like seriously, totally cool. and this whole change-font-coloured-thing is WICKED bad man. i mean, seriously. soo.. today kind of totally sucked. i mean, i was stuck with the kids while mom got her hair cut and the kids would totally not clean and acted soo bad. so i was all arrgghh.. plus mom is all... do some ironing! and i'm all... no way man... this sucks. WORSE DAY OF MY LIFE, WHAT DO YOU THINK? dude, this post is effing awesome. can't get over how cool it looks. anyway. mom won't let me have any friends over cause the grandparental units are coming over very soon, aka tomorrow and that really sucks. like a lot. they are not the nicest people ever. just imagine some swiss slave drivers. yep, that's them. ok. i think i'm done now. like, i only wrote on here, i think, to change font colours and now i'm done. gosh.
i'll do whatever i feel like doing, GOSH.
i'll do whatever i feel like doing, GOSH.
July 25, 2004
Ok so the other day, i went to a wedding for chelsea l.'s sister, and gueeess what? i totally caught the bouquet! yep, i did! i feel sooo sorry for mary. i totally understand her pain, even if it is only 50/200 understanding. i wish i were in edinburgh... not only to give her lots of hugs to comfort her, but also... cause it's scotland silly! i'm very tired and my eyes have been itching for three days.
tonight was the third time this summer that i had a terrible nights sleep. i couldn't fall asleep at all, and i keep on having this very odd dream. it always involves the same dock which allows you to cross from one island to the next. it's weird... i mean, there was an important character in it, i don't remember who or why they were important.. and there was also a bengal tiger, a crocodile, and i was afraid that i would be eaten by purranahs. and, in the end, i needed to get to the other side of the bridge, and i fell in the water, so i grabbed ahold of this piece of board to swim to the other side, when i see the crocodile, and in the end, i got eaten by it. it was rather greusome
i'm sure there is some profound thinking involved in this... but i don't reaaaalllly feel like analysing it.
so anyway. not much else is going on. i'm very envious of margaret because she's in california, and i absolutely love it to death there. like. oh so much. especially the san diego area.
my dad came into my room this morning and said that there was something rotting, what's rotting! and i was all like yeah i think there is. i do think there is something... in both my room and my bathroom... eek... summer does STRANGE things to a person. have i said that already? well, it's true. i've really got to clean my room. here, i'll make a list.
Things to do:
tonight was the third time this summer that i had a terrible nights sleep. i couldn't fall asleep at all, and i keep on having this very odd dream. it always involves the same dock which allows you to cross from one island to the next. it's weird... i mean, there was an important character in it, i don't remember who or why they were important.. and there was also a bengal tiger, a crocodile, and i was afraid that i would be eaten by purranahs. and, in the end, i needed to get to the other side of the bridge, and i fell in the water, so i grabbed ahold of this piece of board to swim to the other side, when i see the crocodile, and in the end, i got eaten by it. it was rather greusome
i'm sure there is some profound thinking involved in this... but i don't reaaaalllly feel like analysing it.
so anyway. not much else is going on. i'm very envious of margaret because she's in california, and i absolutely love it to death there. like. oh so much. especially the san diego area.
my dad came into my room this morning and said that there was something rotting, what's rotting! and i was all like yeah i think there is. i do think there is something... in both my room and my bathroom... eek... summer does STRANGE things to a person. have i said that already? well, it's true. i've really got to clean my room. here, i'll make a list.
Things to do:
- clean room
- do summer reading and journals
- finish scrapbook--france
- start scrapbook--england
- get saddle oxfords
- get a kilt for school
- start working out on monday so you can pass fitness testing
that's all i can think of. i'll come back with more later. ok, now i've got to go.
July 21, 2004
i don't want to whine about how much i miss england for the sake of everyone's insanity, but i am REALLY really sad about it. oh, and i'm also angry because today i was too destracted to remember the ortho appointment i've been reminding myself about for a month, and it was a very important meeting. and now i'm very very upset with myself. and i have a lot of make-up cleaning work to do and i can't do anything for a few days because i've been doing non stop stuff.
and the streets song "dry your eyes" makes me sad because that also reminds me of england. and i'm also angry because SOMEone scratched my MCFLY cd and now it skips! SO ANGRY!
ok, i've said what i've come to say. hope your happy!
and the streets song "dry your eyes" makes me sad because that also reminds me of england. and i'm also angry because SOMEone scratched my MCFLY cd and now it skips! SO ANGRY!
ok, i've said what i've come to say. hope your happy!
July 20, 2004
ok so i'm back. and i am not so happy about it. babysitting my little brother and waiting for my mom to return home. she's out running errands or something. so, i'm really really sad to be home. like, i'm sad that i had to leave london and mary behind (she's doing an archeological dig in scotland. she just found a piece of saxon pottery dating back to the 9th or 10th century!) but i'm happy to be with my friends and family (well.. my dad. he's the only one we had left behind). i just wish i were in london with my friends... and family.
soo school starts in like a month. but seminary starts in a couple of weeks. THAT i am SO NOT excited for. i'm sorry, it's just... 545 ugh.
so, i'm not obsessed with harry potter fan fiction anymore. thank goodness that is overwith. now i realize what a freak i was. am. was. and gosh what people must have thought of me. wonder how it wraps itself around people so much. summer can do weird stuff to a girl. weird stuff. like break their habits. and stuff.
ok, i'm getting tired of writing, so i'm just going to end with the fact that today i got to see a cinderella story and am officially totally jealous and wish my life could turn out that way. well, except for the dead dad and evil mom thing.
soo school starts in like a month. but seminary starts in a couple of weeks. THAT i am SO NOT excited for. i'm sorry, it's just... 545 ugh.
so, i'm not obsessed with harry potter fan fiction anymore. thank goodness that is overwith. now i realize what a freak i was. am. was. and gosh what people must have thought of me. wonder how it wraps itself around people so much. summer can do weird stuff to a girl. weird stuff. like break their habits. and stuff.
ok, i'm getting tired of writing, so i'm just going to end with the fact that today i got to see a cinderella story and am officially totally jealous and wish my life could turn out that way. well, except for the dead dad and evil mom thing.